Well! I'm here. Long story I'm sorryI met someone in April we hit it off instantly spent everyday together. Enjoyed our time we said we were jus going to be friends and hang out the other person started to catch feelings and want more. I was open to it but I needed to clear something's before I committed and he understood. We continued to hang and the thing was we enjoyed each other in the physical but when we were apart we would fight due to his insecurities.
He was with this woman for 5 yrs they were supposed to get married this ur around this time but they broke it off last August and he moved back to NJ in March and we met in April.
I compromised a lot for this person, mistake one!
He never admitted his wrongs the fights were ways my fault even when it was him.
My birthday was July 16 prior to my birthday we stopped speaking for 2 weeks
For my birthday he came to my house and left flowers on my porch didn't even give them to me I caught him while he was pulling out my driveway I called asking for him to come back he said no he had to go back to work. Which is shyt because he works for himself.
So that night thinking we were in a good place I invited him out. He declined and said he hoped I enjoyed my night. I found out her was in a fender bender ok cool
Two days later he texts me all this stuff about how we were just two friends hanging out it was nothing more. It was cool sometimes but he never had feelings for me.
He made me feel like I Was crazy he said I was living in a fantasy world because I'm like yo I now u asked to be together! Wtf! So now ur just going to deny everything. He also said the flowers meant nothing it was my birthday and he thought it would be weird to send a text to say happy bday so he got the flowers since I've done nice things for him previously.
Which makes no sense because he had to go out of his way to come to my house because he lives about 30 mins away. Then to pick out flowers! Then he was like, I was in the area! So coincidently u were in the area on my bday with flowers! He also said he never liked me saying he likes someone is like the L word for him yet his own family has told me that he has said he really liked me and how happy he has been since we met.
I figured because of the ex he was trying to negate his feelings deep down I knew, but I got confirmation that he is indeed speaking to the ex again and is going to move back down south.
I really liked this person and I feel like such a fool, allowing myself to fall for this person that tried to negate me as if I was nothing.
I know good things won't come to him and karma will get him.
It just sucks because it took me three yes to find someone after focusing on school and being busy and picky.
I have an intuition that when things go sour with the ex gf he's going to remember how good I was despite the stupid arguments.
He's a Sagittarius BTW, intend to always attract this sign. They always talk about sags being honest, but in this case he totally lied about his feelings and I had no evidence to shot him out because I deleted our texts!
So much time and energy lost. In so many words he basically hit me with the I love you but not in love with you. How do you go from being ready to make that move in March but months later it's idk. Swear guys think you're the sun, moon and stars when life is in shambles but when the future isn't so bleak it's "hmm idk". 
Been there. And there was no "in so many words", that's literally what he said. Talk about blind-sided. 
You are very special and like a GPS, the right man is going to see it and put his sights on you.
I don't think that you are not learning. I think you find it hard to believe that people behave in the way that they do.
