Hello
Single mom checking in!
I have a DD who's 8 (9 in May!) I recently ended a 4 year LTR, which has taken a big emotional toll. My SO was/is very insecure and emotionally abusive which tore me up inside. I started dating him when DD was 3 almost 4 so, a major reason why I stayed was to keep the consistency in her life (Sorry the logic made sense at the time!). She's an amazing child who's well behaved, gets good grades, and is a bit clingy
. Her father is involved, but cites his job keeping him from doing more than bare minimum. This is a stressor because I'm slowly assuming the care my parents have been doing for us, and he's defiant to help(gymnastics and swim lessons ect.) He's gotten very hostile and edgy lately, namely when I was out east with SO... I ignore it. Depression is rearing it's ugly head... I never thought I'd be single this long, I desire another baby and this just feels so far off. I know us moms take things so personal, I feel like such a failure!
OTOH
I have an amazing support system, I live with mom and dad (Saving for our condo). I have a career that pays well, although it's emotionally and physically draining at times. I'm finishing school (trying to knock masters out before 30!) and trying to gain my footing. I'm 28 and a part of me feels I've wasted too much time... I've spent the last two weeks emotionally drowning when I'm alone... I just feel in this rut. Ugh!
I want to date and enjoy company again, yet I want to retreat in my shell and just not think about it. DD is at that age where she's putting 2 and 2 together, and I feel like I need to get my siht in order!
Sorry for the ramblings. I've read the thread in its entirety and truly commiserate with you ladies. Grateful for a place on LHCF for "us" where it's not "our fault"... you know what I mean.... Lol
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