I really wish things had worked out between me and D. I was a little disappointed that he didn't come down to the Tuesday night spot last night, I wanted to see him. It's probably better that way though. The effect that he still has on me after almost a year is crazy. I guess I'll always have a soft spot for him.
I did see other dude, though. He passes by the spot on his way home, so he asked me to come out and say hi. IDK, he has this shy demeanor that really makes me think he's just scared, and not necessarily being shady. I've always felt like guys don't bounce from being hurt like women do, a lot of times they just shut down emotionally. Still, I can't allow myself to keep being shut out and treated less than I deserve because he can't move past that. If he's serious, he's gonna have to do a lot better, and in the meantime, I'm going about business as usual.