Well it was via FB chat. He had been calling and we had been doing the phone tag thingy.Oh lawd.... What did you say?
HE'S COMING TO SEE YOU?
I got 2 teary phone calls today and some emails and I replied and had to really break things down for him. I'm hoping he understands now my point of view and my last sentence read. I really don't want to visit this subject with you again. He has a ticket for me to come see him to talk and I suggest that if I was to visit, I need a hotel room. He now knows exactly why I do not want to be in his house or no where near his house.
Yeah...I have some time to figure out exactly what I want to do/say. I dont trust him and I dont think there is anything he can say at this point to make things better...or should I say, make me feel comfortable enough to start anew with him again.
It's amazing how men can go all out crazy to get someone back in their lives. But women could not get away with this. I asked him, "If I had done something like this to you, would you take me back"...It took a minute for him to come up with an answer....then he said it depended. But couldnt verbalize what it depended on ...I KNOW if I had deceived him like this, it would have been much worse for me in every way.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Akj9h4VEUTs
My derring-do allows me to dance the rigadoon
Around you
But by the time I'm close to you, I lose
My desideratum and now you, so
Now you have it, so tell me baby, what's the word?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with
What I lay down?