Geez... I was 16 when I first spotted him, I used to go in before school not for my usual mocha order, just to look at him and so he would take my order *lol* he's gorgeous smile and accent would always make me melt. And then he asked me out when I was 18... he must have known I was 'stalking him'! *lol* I was such a silly girl, not as bold as I am now. Two years later he broke my heart but I never had a bad word to say about him, never, he never treated me wrong or let me down or anything like that. I was just gutted *sigh* and thinking about it now it was an age thing and was probably the best thing to do.
When he got back in contact with me last year I was hesitant to respond back but I saw no good reason not to. Seeing him again for the first time after 4-5 years... my my, he was still SO handsome, a little older, his hair was starting to gray a little but I found that sexy
wooooweeee!!! . The funny thing was, after after an hour or so in his company I felt so comfortable and relaxed, so I felt ridiculous for freaking out and being a nervous wreck during the days leading up to meeting up. So, it would seem his reason for parting was because, although I was mature and responsible for my age at the time (he thought I was 24 on our first date! it still makes me laugh!!) he felt he was holding me back and thought I had so much more to do and achive (which I did!). Him being older meant he was in a totally different place to where I was and he recognised this.
Being back with him now is SO much better. He's such an amazing man - respectful, supportive, encouraging, honest, decent and such a hard worker. I'm very very lucky to have him (back) in my life and I think that's all I can ask for really, anything more is a bonus. I love love LOVE being with him.
Apologies for the long winded post, I just wanted to get these thoughts off my chest and out there!