I haven't mentioned Mark, my student teacher in a few weeks now. I've just been sitting back and observing him, trying to figure out if he's worth my time or not. I've just about made up my mind on a few things.
Something weird about me is I have a very weak stomach and the strangest things turn me off about people, even people that I have an intimate interest in. About 3 weeks ago, he was really sick with sinus issues and a few other upper respiratory issues. He asked me to stop by his place for something after I dropped my son off at school. I did. I get there and
he has tissues everywhere. He's sneezing, blowing his nose, making those god awful throat noises- just ugh and he mentioned something about waking up to a nose bleed. All of this was just too much for my stomach. I immediately became nauseous and grossed out by him.
Nothing has changed about him. He's still really handsome and a gentleman for the most part, but now I just can't do it.
What is wrong with me? I really liked this man before that morning, but now I can't imagine even kissing him because I became too grossed out by everything I saw and heard that morning. I feel bad (well not really) because he calls and calls and calls and most times I won't answer my phone. I only have the desire for a professional relationship with him now, nothing personal.
So now he thinks I have a boyfriend because I rarely answer my phone when he calls. His words to me this week-in a joking manner "I don't care if you have a new boyfriend. You are not going to get rid of me. I'm not going anywhere. So you might as well answer the phone when I call because I'm not gonna stop calling." Little does he know that I don't have a boyfriend, I just don't want to talk to him on a personal level anymore all because he grossed me out. Maybe after a few weeks my feelings for him will switch back over to the way they were before, but for right now, my heart is NOT having it.
ETA: And I have been in long relationships with guys that have been sick before and have even help nurse them back to health, but all of his "stuff" just sent my nausea into overload. Weird, I know.