ToyToy
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I haven't been around in a while, and I thought for a minute to post a new thread, but what I am about to share is also part of my life as a single Christian woman.
After 15 months of unemployment I got a job
!!!!!! I am posting my testimony below for encouragement for anyone who is believing God for a job. I hope it blesses you!
After 15 months of unemployment I got a job
!!!!!! I am posting my testimony below for encouragement for anyone who is believing God for a job. I hope it blesses you!A New Thing
For as long as I was employed, I had a sense of security. I knew that no matter how broke I was two weeks before payday, payday would most certainly come, and I would cross the bridge of how to survive the next month at its appointed time which, incidentally, was the twenty-first of every month. My biggest fear was losing my job. But the company I worked for had a very attractive redundancy package, so after being with the company for over six years, losing my job stopped being my biggest fear. And when I did lose my job in December 2008, the fear of not being able to find a new job, the fear of not having money, the fear of having to sign on at the job centre, the fear of getting entangled in the system and becoming a statistic, the fear of not being able to shop anymore, the fear of not having food in the house (and not out of personal choice), the fear of having nothing to do, the fear of losing my friends, the fear of losing my self-confidence, the fear of becoming dependent on people and the fear of losing brain cells along the way, replaced my initial fear instead.
In the space of fifteen months, God began to work on me in different areas:
God Readjusted My Sense of Security
Everything I ever relied on was taken away from me – my job, my money, my friends (except one), my self-confidence and self-worth, my pride, and most importantly, control. In May 2009, God asked me how much I would trust Him when I “free-fall”. God told me that He was still God, whether I was cushioned (with money) or not. He told me that as long as I had money in my account, it was easy for me to trust Him because I was cushioned, but as soon as my money would be touched, I would begin to panic. “But”, said He, “I am still God, whether you have money in your account or not. My Word still stands.” And lastly, He told me that He wanted to show me how big a God He is.
God Readjusted My Attitude
One of the hardest lectures I had to listen to came from a friend who told me that God would not move me until I adjusted my attitude. He told me that God would keep me, look after me, feed me, see to it that I would not lose my home, essentially, meet my needs, because that was His promise to me, however I would stay *here* until I learned the lesson. You see, I had become depressed, negative, resentful and bitter. I was angry with God - and later on, my friend - because they both “just didn’t get it”. It was only when I started praising God, when my circumstance told me otherwise, worshiping God, even when I did not feel like it, speaking God's Word, even when the facts rebelled against the truth, that I began to feel God’s Hand in my life.
God Brought People into My Life
The people I thought would be there for me weren’t. Instead, God brought a new set of people into my life (most of whom I had previously known but was never close to). No matter how lonely the journey felt sometimes, I was never alone, but surrounded by people who truly cared for me.
God Taught Me How to Deal With It
At my lowest point, just before I was about to take a dose of antidepressants my GP had prescribed for me, the Holy Spirit intervened and reminded me of my love for running. I found a route the very same day, and began running the next. My experience running was very parallel to what I was going through. I found that it was an uphill journey becoming fit, just like it had been an uphill journey trusting God. I also discovered that if God was faithful enough to give me the strength and motivation to run in heavy rain, through heavy winds, in deep snow and on ice, He would also give me the strength and motivation to deal with whatever life threw at me. People thought I was crazy, but faith sometimes does seem crazy.
God Introduced Himself to Me as Jehovah Jireh
I truly have never felt God’s Hand my life as strongly as I have in the last fifteen months. In times where my sister and I had absolutely no food in the house and didn’t know how we would feed ourselves for the week, God sent someone to buy food into our home, give us money or buy us a meal day by day. During this time my sister and I lacked nothing.
God Introduced Himself as The One Who Hears
Once I finally understood my rights as a child of the Living God, I began to realize that God truly hears us. One instance that sticks in my memory is when I told God that I hadn’t been shopping in a long time, and that I would love to buy myself a few new clothes. Within four days, a friend came to me and gave me a voucher for one of my favourite stores. This was just one of many, many instances.
God Introduced Himself as the God of Miracles
My miracle is that after fifteen months of working on me, God presented me with two offers from huge international companies and told me to pick one, because I would prosper whichever way I chose to go. I had 5 interviews in the space of a week and saw a total of nine people. At the end of last week (26th of March), I was told that a decision would be reached the following week. One of the managers told me that, in this time, they would decide whether they wanted to call me for yet another interview or employ me on the spot. When I left the building I thanked God, but also told Him that I had no intention of going through another grilling interview. I told Him that I wanted both offers by the end of the day. I requested this, because I had a team prayer meeting the next day, and I wanted to go with my testimony in my hands. On Friday, 26th of March around 4.30pm I received a phone call from the first company with an offer. For about five minutes, all I could utter was that it was over, until I got a nudge and remembered that I must thank God. So I thanked God with tears in my eyes. He told me to wait for the second company. I thought this to be odd, as it was already past 5pm. Within approximately fifteen minutes, I received a call from the second company with an offer. In addition, my salary has almost doubled. The job I have accepted is perfect for me and fits me “to a T”.
The last fifteen months were hard, but the lessons I learned were priceless. I am most grateful that God never left my side, but also for our relationship. I do pray that next time I go through a refining period, I will be a bit more graceful.
I'm just praying for guidance and wisdom and that I don't get distracted from my ministry work by these new feelings. Honestly I don't know what to do
. I too thought I would have my first child at 30 (I remember telling someone at 27 that I wanted to be sorted out financially by age 30, so I can have my first child by then). God has different plans for us (His thoughts are not our thoughts, neither are our ways His ways), and we don't always understand what He is doing, but it is always worth it in the end. We just have to keep holding on to the fact that His plans for us are of peace and not of evil, to give us a hope and a future (Jer 29:11) 
