This is a VERY LONG read
I've been with my man now for four months and its been a little up and down.
The only real problem is the communication of feelings. I'm a Virgo and he is a Sag. I like to know what's going on in ppl's heads and 9/10 I can read u like a book within 5 minutes.
My man?
He is sssssooooo QUIET , shy and non emotional at times. Like, I'm the same way, but he is on some whole other level, like when we first met (met him online after 2 months) he could barely look at me for hours and he just kept smiling the whole time, but was really quiet and I can tell a bit anxious. Its weird cuz Sags are usually really outgoing, sociable and all that jazz. He's his sign in every other way though. We live in a real mountain area so he spends life camping, mountain biking, snowboarding, hockey, etc. He does landscapes for a living so he is always outside coming home all broken up where I have to massage that
AWESOME body .
He is the most considerate person ever. He'll do anything for you. Very humorous, wont even think about asking you to pay for something, hardworking. Beautiful at coloring, enjoys cuddling( I'm not that type of gal lol had to get used to it) and trusts me to the keys of his house. I know he loves spending time with me, I've been over here the last 4 days now...but that was after
we had THE TALK. I mean, I didn't expect to have it so soon, but I couldn't deal with his nonverbal ways
.
In the beginning we wouldn't go a day without talking and it would last all day. Then we both started getting really busy but we still made sure to check in atleast once a day. Then it started becoming sporadic where days would go by and that was hard on me ( surprising becuz I'm usually not thirsty for anybody like that). When I finally moved back over here I thought it would get better cuz we literally live like 2 or 3 blocks away from each other. We spend a lot of time texting because I'm a senior and have a full course load plus working, and he works from 7 until sometimes 6 at night and when he comes home he crashes for a couple hours so we really have to make time at night to be together or text. Well all that is fine and dandy except he started being really cold towards me.
I know his regular quiet from his jerky silence lol and after a while I got fed up like whats up with you?
Basically, he keeps all his emotions inside. Like deep inside, where you have to claw at him! Its like pulling teeth honestly and like I said I knew that in the beginning but over time I thought I would get somewhere with it. But that aint happen. He says a few things about his life sometimes but doesn't go into detail, like how he moved away from home, loves where he comes from but wont be happy there, and wont tell me why. He says he was the quiet one in the family who left. Sometimes he shuts down completely for like a week, changed plans of us going out and after a minute I lost patience thinking okay you just messing with me now, probably focusing attention on someone else, and I gotta cut you loose. Even though I knew it was damn near impossible he was with someone else, cuz he seriously just has no time in the day! Always sleeping or working with a couple hours in between for me.
So after a few days of silence between us he texts me saying he wanted us to go to the mountains the next day...I didn't reply because he had already cancelled plans like this. The next night or something I finally texted him at midnight knowing I was waking him up, because I couldn't deal. I felt really hurt, but I also felt bad that I didn't reply to him. So I said I missed him, and I know its late and talk later. He texted me right back saying he missed me too, he hadn't heard from me and thought I was upset with him (
he also knows my regular quiet nature from my upset silence )and he wanted me to come over the next day. He really wanted me by his side and I told him he hadn't been acting like it for a while. Then all of sudden he let go and started explaining what was up.
He said he needed time to think, felt like he was selfish and I deserved better, he didn't have enough to offer me. He was scared of moving too fast, really cautious from his past and he had been working nonstop for the past couple of weeks and just burnt out really. But mostly just scared (of being hurt again) and thinks that I deserve someone more established. What it is, is that he's slowly building a landscaping business and its hard, and its been raining for months here and just a lot of things have been going on with that and he thinks I deserve the world right now at this very instant you know? And with me, I'm like honey you're already getting there. You graduated with your degree in urban geography, u moved out of your parents house when u were 18 and never went back, moved across the country on your own, u have your own place, your own car,pay all your bills! He doesn't have nicest of those things, but that's ok he's building and has no sense of fashion or décor
. We can build together is what I'm trying to get through to him, and plus I'm a lot younger than him and I'm still in school trying to figure myself out so I'm not one to judge too harshly.
I know the women in Off topic will chew my head off because I'm with a white man who isn't a multimillionaire....just yet. Its all good. I know my man's potential, and he aint sittin around twiddling his thumbs, he works hard, and with his hands, a provider and is building that company now, a Go-getter in my eyes.
And he's HOT, I mean, darnit he looks better than me!! 6 foot, hazel eyes, lean and muscular, tan from working outside, full lips, angular face, big hands and feet
And I'm easy on the eyes too if I say so myself
Anyway, I know I've been babbling, I just haven't been able to get this out, except with one of my homegirls and I've been lurking this thread for like over a month. We're in a good place right now, I'm typing this at his place, he came home early an hr ago because of the rain and is sleeping in the other room while I pretend to do my homework lol We've been together nonstop like I said for the past 4 days and its been him asking to be with me....he has become the thirsty one and I am pleased
I think what I'm going to have to do in our relationship is learn to be more patient, let go of my wanting to know everything going on in his brain all the time and let him be himself, let him open up at his steady pace....until I feel he's really holding back again! Trust your instincts ladies! Accept his quiet nature, appreciate the small gestures he does when he thinks I don't notice, and massage those kinks out his joints after a long day