It doesn't matter now many times I read WMLB, or talk to friends and let them convince me, or read other people's post, or read my own past experiences with other guys in the past in my journal, or just live life normally I still think about him, I miss him, he was the very first guy I've ever met who actually treated me with too much respect ( if that even makes seems). I knew from the first time we met there was something kindred about him, and that he was meant to leave an impression in my life, I hope we hear/see/met again.
I wish I could text/call him right now while typing this, but my pride and all the 'rules' are in my path. I keep saying to myself, even while including it in my prays before I sleep at night that if it's god destine for him to be with me (friend or more) this guy will make the effect and initiate everything to be with me.
I dont know the backstory but can I ask you to maybe challenge yourself and work against this pride? Do you feel as if you initiated too much and are now waiting for him to do so?