you know... i was thinking about that. and i think we have to accept the fact that orgasms are not pretty.
i had sex with a guy thats like... we talk on really academic, intellectual levels. like the night before when we did it i was describing how it made my stomach hurt and explaining to him about the cervix. he wasnt familiar so i literally pulled out my laptop and googled the cervix project for him and we looked at the pictures and literally discussed cervices
so in the morning when we went to do it again, i kept ruining the moment by talking about all this not-sexy stuff
and it was literally killing his boner
so he wanted to get me off manually (keeping in mind the stuff we were discussing about the cervix and all the insidey lady parts
)
so im lying there just not focusing on all the insecurities. like, im totally nude with these love handles... and i shaved but i always miss that one spot right there
are you looking at that? and this is taking a bit of time, and i cant always make noises so that you know what youre doing works cause i gotta concentrate... etc etc... like, if i sat there and focused on all the ways i could be uncomfortable and insecure, we both would have been wasting our time cause i wouldnt get off... but, nah.... i accepted awhile ago that the orgasm is ugly. period. and thats the only way to have one