I have a "friend" yall. I literally put myself on the front line for. We met during a social gathering of black women here in Austin. I been a sympathetic ear through alot of stuff until stuff started sounding mad familiar. I mean she would bounce stuff off me before she would publicly post things, like an emotional springboard, next thing I know it's on her SM. But then stuff started to not add up. It was like line after line of victimization. I am not one to judge, because I been through alot of things she shared so some people's lives are that unfortunate. But I would share my experience, offer support, you know friend stuff. I am very resourceful. I can get you where you want to go or point you in that direction, because I know people, stuff, processes.
Every time I would post something on the networking page, she would delete it (she is the founder), and I do not post often and it is about a community/ fundraising event. And I see people self promoting all the time. But my post would automatically go into moderation then delete. I also notice another one of our good friends and co founder left the group and it is kinda unmoderated now.
So when I asked her what was up, just casually she says she will look into it then says she battling breast cancer. I tell her I am always there to support, because I went through a double mastectomy and did she need anything treatment wise. She said she was going to handle it holistically. Now she doesn't have cancer.
Okay y'all. Truthfully, I think it's bull crap. She used this angle to get into that particular circle. You know how some people like to build a sympathetic fanbase, like the breast feeding stripper mom/ Musiq Soulchild's former BM. I honestly think she is a social climber that has an extreme need to belong. First it was the activist circle, then she had to pull away, then she pivoted to making dating events then she pivoted to modeling and cancer survivor and now it is the metaphysical circle, because in Austin everyone has to be on a spiritual higher plane *eye roll*. All this things would be left unfinished as she goes to chase the next thing. Just reads disingenuous. Everytime I go out, it is draining. Some people have this need to be known.
I think the realization came when I was at an event, in this awful VIP section, like really what is the use of having premium seating if, one, you cannot see the performer, two, the stage is being blocked by monitors, three, no courtesy bottle service despite you paid 200% over ticket value and I suggested they have bottle service. In a DM!!! ****!!! That deserves a bottle for making YOU money. They served dinner plates without drinks and they were in a take out styrofoam tray. At an all white party and the only people who had tables were VIP. Girl! My dude said the jerk chicken was just baked chicken with a mango glaze. I have yet to have jerk chicken. I am beginning to think it is a rare cuisine or something. How can the rice be over cooked and under cooked at the SAME DAMN TIME?!! Y'all!!!
These Austin promoters playing games and this is why we cannot have nice things. Had the headliner tripping over equipment and weaving through stuff to get to her set up. She tripped, because of the set up! I was like "bae, what is this hoe ish?!!" I am still hot. Tiffany did not deserve that. All the artists performed covers when they had albums because the house band too lazy, dj too lazy or they did not have a sound engineer or they were not getting paid enough. One lady was like f* it. I drove all the way from Killeen, y'all are going to hear my ish. And she was, by far, the best performer of the night. House band off key. A mess!
Whoa...so...yeah, I was there. But I let people sit in my section, was very personable and approachable, I thought. The dress was bad so maybe people were intimidated, that is normal but once you talk to me, I am genuinely a cool person. I am saying all this to say. My "friend" later on the networking page was like "yeah I was there, I saw you and you looked stunning." I was like "aww thank you boo, where were you? You did not say 'hi'? I was looking for familiar faces." She was like next time I will definitely come through and give you hugs. Lip service.
So me and another associate were talking about this guy that I remember attacked the friend on SM so I went to tag her and it seems I am not her friend anymore. **** no. Was I ever? You are not about to be in my DMs as an emotional springboard. Now you are a "model" with an average of 200 likes with these long arse diatribe about the metaphysical celestial bodies in the fifth house of bull spit because that the way the Austin wind blows. I am not your fan, ****. I am going to stop letting people take my energy and my life story.
Story of my life, too nice, too accomodating. I have no circle. I have a line segment. Literally Point A to Point B. I am so disillusion about the Austin market. I been doing some reflection. Like how I see things versus how people see me. I asked the other co founder, like, honestly, what is it? Everyone tends to recuse themselves eventually. There is no real energy here. Only fascades.