There were other issues that I didn't like about him at all. I'm the type of person that hangs onto something even though I don't want to be with them...like I'm waiting for the right time to quit or hoping they will change. Of course they don't. He knew I pretty much couldn't stand him being around .
We used to go out lots and I kind of made the kids an excuse because I have plenty of people willing to babysit. However, the words came out of his mouth that he didn't want kids to feature in a relationship - you fool - you got young kids - but then he rarely saw them anyway. Before we met he hadn't seen them for 5 months. I persuaded him to see them. He said he just wants to party and go out and have fun. This 44 year old idiot.
He lacked conversational skills, had no common sense, lived on WhatsApp and text me a running commentary of his life, including pictures of his breakfast, lunch and dinner, the train station, his office, his kitchen and what he was making, the shirt he was thinking of buying.....you name it my phone was buzzing...... and was very insensitive.
4 months of all this.
I feel free now that he's not officially around.
Yep, I want to be in a relationship and my online profile already has a few messages!! I like to jump straight back into the saddle
We went out with friend couple of his. Young married black couple. They have a 1 yr old who they brought with them. She's the cutest thing ever. Anyway, we're at a restaurant. Having a good time. This was the first time I met them. Really nice, normal people #blacklove lol Idk how the topic or whatever came up. Oh, we were discussing vacations. The wife was like yea, well DH can't go to Brazil. DH was like yeaaaa, I love Brazilian women Brazilian women this that the third. SO is laughing uncomfortably, the wife is holding the baby looking perturbed. Meanwhile, I'm just sitting there in my head like noooooooo I liked youuuuu! I thought you were cool, man! First of all youre making your wife visibly upset, 2nd you cooning in front of your black daughter, 3rd you cooning in front of white people (my SO)! So that happened. Thennnnnn cut to today, I'm in the lunch room at work and I overhear these 2 older black women vibing over how their husbands love white women! Just in there laughing about it, bonding over that ****. Am I in the damn twilight zone right now?
We go to the gym together daily but we each do our own thing because we have different fitness goals. Something is so sexy about seeing him across the gym pumping iron and so focused knowing he is all mine. I see him watching me too at times when I doing my thing. I love it, motivates me even more. Yesterday I was walking by and he tapped me on my booty, it was too cute to have that flirtation and sparks then go home together.
It really warms my heart to watch my SO go in on my food. This niqqa gulped down dinner last night and gave me props .
I know exactly what you mean. I do a little victory dance in my head whenever SO goes back for seconds.
I definitely hyped up my cooking before we got serious. I used to never cook now I cook all the time
All these marriage discussions on lhcf + my personal beliefs = it may not be for me.
What are the benefits again? What are the benefits that I cannot achieve without the special paper?
On another note, I actually don't like the term 'fiance'. I just think it sounds pretentious.