Oops, I meant to come back a while ago and respond to this. My apologies,
LoveisYou.
Like you, I never wanted my "desires" to be taken away--only to be placed on reserve until the appropriate time. When I was earnest in this prayer, I had nary a problem; I'd be mildly "aware" of my body around ovulation (frankly that's due to another area I'm yet working on, since the worse I eat, the more pronounced my menstrual symptoms become), but it was nothing I couldn't readily reject and rebuke.
Admittedly I recently opened the floodgates by becoming too closely involved with a counterfeit, and up until a little while ago I wasn't handling the fallout from this too well.
While I knew all along that the Lord wasn't pleased, I first had to get back to where I was in the beginning, when I
genuinely didn't want to do it anymore (as opposed to justifying it with the excuse that the urges were too difficult to overcome b/c I was still enjoying it). Once I prayed that sincere prayer, I was delivered from what had previously seemed insurmountable. While I'm still dealing with
thoughts, I'm not wraught with physical
yearning. I'm confident that once I get serious about quelling my mind's desires (the "mentally single" post hearkens to this), I'll be delivered from the thoughts as well.
Two things have helped: 1) I knew the urges weren't
impossible to overcome, as I'd done so before, and 2) I was forced to face the music when I was asked, far more bluntly than posted here, whether I ever indulged said urges. It was no longer a "secret sin" once I'd verbally confessed to it and had to acknowledge how much I was compromising my ministry and testimony.
In short, be honest with the Lord (and yourself) and tell Him the same thing you told us. If it's consistently overwhelming, fasting and prayer may be in order. Invite the Holy Spirit in in those moments, before you have time to convince yourself that you're "allowed" to succumb to human frailty. That's how things snowball; a little lust can quickly turn into a big ol' backslide. I find that I accomplish this better when I immortalize my thoughts in writing rather than just allowing them to fester inside my head. Cranking up some praise music and going outside for a walk/run helps too, although I haven't done that in ages.
Also--and I can't emphasize this enough--
PLEASE resist the temptation to "missionary date"! If a man expresses anything other than 100%
personal commitment to leading a godly lifestyle (not "I guess I can wait, but I've never had to before" and not "Well, I guess I'll do what I gotta do"), do not pass go. Do not collect $200. Drop to your knees and
pray: for him, for the direction of the relationship, for your own emotional diligence. Any man pursuing courtship for marriage should exhibit the requirements for a godly husband
at the onset of the courtship. Even if he is for you, trust that the Lord will bring him back around once he's ready. IT IS NOT YOUR JOB TO SAVE HIM!!! This is just asking to gradually begin entertaining whatever lust he's still harboring (at best) or to end up in a compromising position during a moment of weakness (at worst); ask me how I know.
I'm glad we're having this convo; too many folks, believers and non-believers alike, have accepted the lie that celibacy is impossible. Hopefully other ladies will chime in with their testimonies as well.