runwaydream
Well-Known Member
ok...so here's the situation...
i come home from school and go online (im using my bf's computer and firefox was already up). i lurk on the forums for awhile and check out a bunch of other sites. Then the internet starts to act up. so after awhile of it still acting dumb i close the web browser. guess what i see? a folder that is still sitting open w. a bunch of porn in it and windows media up. when i pressed play some porno that he had been watching came up.
my guess is he was watching this first and then started surfing the web then realizing it was time to go to work, left forgetting that he had left his little stash up.
here's the deal.. me and him had been thru this b4. i don't like him looking at it..at ALL. he promised he wouldnt the first time i caught him. the second time i accidentally found it on his comp (he told me to click on a folder to see something and i clicked on the wrong one) we got into a huge blowup and he swore on his grandmothers grave that he'll delete every single porno that is on his computer and that i'll never see anything like this again. i believed him and we made up.
now months later what do i see? and u kno if it was only that i don't think i would've left him. but then after seeing that of course i actually started to LOOK for stuff and then i see this pic of this naked girl doing all sorts of things. (he had like 10 diff pix of her) but the one that hurt the most was when it was just her.. when she wasn't performing any sexual acts but was just lying there facing the camera w. her little whorish legs spread open. to me that just seemed more personal than all of the other crap i found. she wasn't performing an act. so its not like ..to quote him "its not the girls that i fantasize about its the actual act of sex that i like seeing" so i can't even use that as an excuse. its no act that he wants to see.. it's HER. and it just hurt so badly. and of course i wonder if when he's w. me he fantasizes about her.
now i know some ppl might say most guys like to watch porn yadda, yadda. but that's not the pt. the pt is he LIED to me. he looked me in the eye and LIED..BLATANTLY. and then tried to HIDE it by putting it under the folder name "battlefield" some video game he likes playing that he knew i would never click on. how can i consider spending the rest of my life w. someone who has no problems w. doing that. w. lying to me and tricking me. and guys..he swore on his dead grandmothers GRAVE that he would never do this again. he's a despicable liar and i can't respect him.
and thing is he wasnt even slick about it. i mean its like he didnt even care if i found it or not. and it was way too easy to find the pictures of that skanky girl. and he obviously just dl'd all of this garbage b/c he had recently cleaned out his entire computer and deleted everything from it. so i left and wrote him a note. i took the pic of us that was on his desktop background off and changed it to that pic of her and wrote him a note saying i hope jacking off to her was worth it. and left my ring on the comp
im at my parents house now. and i really just want to hear what other ppl would do in this situation. im just so upset right now. i should be studying but im too stressed. any advice would be good.
i come home from school and go online (im using my bf's computer and firefox was already up). i lurk on the forums for awhile and check out a bunch of other sites. Then the internet starts to act up. so after awhile of it still acting dumb i close the web browser. guess what i see? a folder that is still sitting open w. a bunch of porn in it and windows media up. when i pressed play some porno that he had been watching came up.
my guess is he was watching this first and then started surfing the web then realizing it was time to go to work, left forgetting that he had left his little stash up.
here's the deal.. me and him had been thru this b4. i don't like him looking at it..at ALL. he promised he wouldnt the first time i caught him. the second time i accidentally found it on his comp (he told me to click on a folder to see something and i clicked on the wrong one) we got into a huge blowup and he swore on his grandmothers grave that he'll delete every single porno that is on his computer and that i'll never see anything like this again. i believed him and we made up.
now months later what do i see? and u kno if it was only that i don't think i would've left him. but then after seeing that of course i actually started to LOOK for stuff and then i see this pic of this naked girl doing all sorts of things. (he had like 10 diff pix of her) but the one that hurt the most was when it was just her.. when she wasn't performing any sexual acts but was just lying there facing the camera w. her little whorish legs spread open. to me that just seemed more personal than all of the other crap i found. she wasn't performing an act. so its not like ..to quote him "its not the girls that i fantasize about its the actual act of sex that i like seeing" so i can't even use that as an excuse. its no act that he wants to see.. it's HER. and it just hurt so badly. and of course i wonder if when he's w. me he fantasizes about her.
now i know some ppl might say most guys like to watch porn yadda, yadda. but that's not the pt. the pt is he LIED to me. he looked me in the eye and LIED..BLATANTLY. and then tried to HIDE it by putting it under the folder name "battlefield" some video game he likes playing that he knew i would never click on. how can i consider spending the rest of my life w. someone who has no problems w. doing that. w. lying to me and tricking me. and guys..he swore on his dead grandmothers GRAVE that he would never do this again. he's a despicable liar and i can't respect him.
and thing is he wasnt even slick about it. i mean its like he didnt even care if i found it or not. and it was way too easy to find the pictures of that skanky girl. and he obviously just dl'd all of this garbage b/c he had recently cleaned out his entire computer and deleted everything from it. so i left and wrote him a note. i took the pic of us that was on his desktop background off and changed it to that pic of her and wrote him a note saying i hope jacking off to her was worth it. and left my ring on the comp
im at my parents house now. and i really just want to hear what other ppl would do in this situation. im just so upset right now. i should be studying but im too stressed. any advice would be good.
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