Happy New Year's, ladies!
Wishing all of us a satisfying year of love, work, manifestation, and fun. May we continue to be the beautiful, confident, intelligent, caring, and fun-loving bunch that we are.
My goals this year are to see how long I can remain single.
Honestly, in the past few weeks I have really come to embrace the fact that a serious romantic partnership is nothing I'm interested in pursuing at this stage in my life. I've never had trouble dating but I always lacked the desire to. It was always more of a matter of "cute guy I like well enough asked me to be his girlfriend so I'll say yes" without any real consideration to the more practical side of what makes a relationship worthwhile for me personally.
All of my previous partnerships took no small amount of cajoling on their parts and in a humorous twist of "gender roles," I've been dealt more ultimatums than I've doled out.
My mother and my god-mother are single, and whenever they inquire about my love life only to hear that there is no one in my picture, they seem a little exasperated. This past year I dated for the fun of it and this year I plan to be single for the fun of it.
Honestly, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted since I've decided to stop fighting against my logic and my desires. I was previously an unintentional heartbreaker, and not the fun, love-em-and-leave-em kind but the "no, you legitimately broke my heart" kind and while it was never intentional, I was never proud of it.
I've never dated bums/losers and don't plan to start, but this year I'm making a point to remain single yet open to options that enhance my life in some way. I plan to spend 2018 at the gym, studying in the library, playing tennis, going hiking, spending time with my friends, going to concerts, checking out museums and events and just basically living my life doing exactly what
I want. I am not
against dating but if a man comes along and is serious about a spot in my life, he's going to have to make spending time with him rank like it does all the other things I have planned for myself. I love free food but dinner dates are uninspired. I can enjoy myself wherever I go and I have been on dates where I had a such a good time because I was enjoying
myself. It was like taking myself on a date and I'd rather do that and meet multiple people in the process versus sitting across from one person the entire night.
One guy I was dating last summer, each of our dates was something different: zoo, concert, carnival, cirque du soleil, a gun range, a Nigerian birthday party (lol), so I know it can be done. I'll post this in the "lean back girl" thread but he told me every time he talked to me, he would get frustrated that when he tried to make plans with me, it was always weeks out. I always had something going on but he said he liked that about me. It made him feel like he had to make a concerted effort to come up with things that would be so fun for me that I would actually confirm a date with him.
This year I plan to be unabashedly and irrevocably for me and I am soooo excited Ironically, when I am at my most selfish is when I'm also my most magnetic so I'm sure y'all will be seeing a lot of me in here.
In fact, I'll kick it off with a fun short story about the universe and her timing: no more than a week after I dumped the guy I told y'all about, another man who I had initially written off in order to pursue that relationship, texted me saying "if your circumstances change, I'd still love to take you to dinner." Haven't heard a peep from dude since saying I would be dating someone else and yet here he is. Almost like he knew somehow.