I just came in here to say this is the happiest single me I have ever been in life. Why is that? It feels sooooooo good! And there are men around but I don't feel stressed. I feel free, fun and laid back. Men look at me, smile, speak and I smile and speak back. I'm not mad that I don't have a boyfriend so I'm not ignoring ugly fools wondering why the ugly ones are talking to me and not the cute ones. lol And when a cute one does come my way I'm not automatically looking at him as a potential- which I can I say I've been guilty of in the past. Sometimes men just say hi and don't want anything. Sometimes. It feels nice to feel like this. I can feel all the stress and anxiety melting away with each passing day. My interactions with men are becoming easier and I'm hoping I can bring the same attitude with me when I want to start dating again. Right now, I'm feeling good on my own.
Last night I was on the train coming home and this father and son come on the train. The train is empty and they want to stand all bunched up next to me but I don't say anything. When they were getting off they looked over at me and said good night so I looked up from my book, smiled and said good night. I can readily admit my body language and facial expressions would normally say "STAY AWAY!" The father goes
beautiful smile nudging his son. lmao. The son says
ok dad yes she's beautiful. We got off the same stop and the father tried to get his son to walk me home. What is this? lol I didn't know dads did the same thing moms did with trying to hook their children up.
I said thank you but I live very close and the father looked disappointed and the son just wished me a safe walk home. I thought it was cute. That interaction isn't much to analyze but I've been paying close attention to my behavior and I know that a few months ago I would probably have a mean face on so they could stop talking to me. I don't feel the need to do that anymore. Look at me y'all. I'm growing.
eta: I have a story about my sister and her boyfriend and why I am encouraging her to break up with him but I'll save it for later.