Ready? I'll try to keep in the order in which we talked about things.
She explained to me how it works and how she works and she wanted me to feel comfortable. She told me a couple of stories of other people she's seen and for one it was clear as day and specific and for another it was more abstract, signs and symbolism and all that. She said that's usually how it works for her.
Then she asked what was the first thing I wanted to talk about and I said duh my love life.
She asked me for a name of someone from my past that I had been thinking about. I told her the name and she said she saw him with like a link of hotdogs or sausages swinging them around like nunchucks and she laughed. I thought it was funny because I could see him doing something stupid like that. She said she was feeling a very silly and immature personality. He can't and won't commit. So then I asked her what was I supposed to be looking for? And she said this online thing is a game for me. I didn't mention I had been online dating. But she said I click click click so quickly and she had an image in her head of me picking up the phone over and over again. A cycle that is boring me. She said I need to stop. Take a month or 2 off and when I recover and come back I will find what I am looking for. I cut in and told her I wanted to move away from online dating and felt like it wasn't for me. She said something is going to click for me online when I come back to it but I have to get serious and really start reading the profiles. But stay away from the phone. She sees me at a desk or on a laptop. A big screen. Hmm... She said she saw an image of a passage jumping off the screen and I will have my aha moment then. She is feeling masculine energy and I immediately thought in my head
how does she know I'm not a lesbian? lol And the very next thing she said was I feel masculine energy. Take it for what it's worth but if you're gay it could be a masculine woman.
I didn't want to but I had to tell her yeah it should be a man. Thanks.
She saw 2 names Reginald Jeremy. She can't tell if those are the names or if it's the dynamic of the names meaning he'll have 2 first names. I'm not crazy about the name Reginald so let's hope that's not his name.
I asked her if he's the one. She said the saw the phrase
this is the guy. I asked her if it would be hard and if I had to work hard at it and she only said I see that you're already working hard. No other answer than that. I asked the doozy. Marriage? Kids? Y'all she said she rarely sees specifics but she sees Long Island specifically Levittown with cute little houses and 2 small children about the same height. She isn't sure if they are twins or if they are back to back. Hahahahaha That had me cracking up. I don't know why. Maybe because I don't think I can see myself on Long Island. I pictured someplace else much farther away.
She stressed me taking the dating time off though. And focus on self care. She said take myself to Barnes and Noble (my favorite thing to do lol) take myself out for a glass of wine, do some yoga and focus on my career. (I'll get to that in a second). It is not time yet. I need time to recover and come back to dating with a different mindset.
Career - she said there is no upward mobility where I am. She saw me in the center of an office with people running around in a flurry all around me and she said it was an incredibly calming picture she saw of me. She said this represents where I am now. And it was good because I found my zen as best I could in a place where it is hard to do so. And she said it is admirable to others. Some people notice and they look to me on how to keep their cool. But she said at some point I am going to make a hard left or a hard right and find something else. I am not going to be running my own business. There will be structure and she sees the word certificate so there will be more schooling. She saw boxes like in a family tree style all leading up one after the other and this is where I will find my upward mobility. She also saw flowers on the outside of the boxes and she said it meant that I would need to find something else outside of work as an adjunct to satisfy all the parts of my soul. Which is funny because my next question was going to be is this career path it? Something that would be my passion?
I asked her about my parents and my sister. She didn't say much about my mom but that she saw her with a big smile and there's some mischief there but she was rocking her empty arms back and forth like she was rocking a baby and pointing to the empty spot with intention. lol So obviously mom wants grandchildren right? She said my dad needed to get better with self care and asked some questions about him that I thought were off base but now I'm wondering because when I mentioned it to my mom she told me some things about my father I didn't know. My sister? That part was really deep and I almost cried but she's not speaking to me. Even though she's not I'm going to call her anyway. So there it is. I'm sure I forgot stuff but it was a lot and I wrote notes so I'll post if I remember anything else.
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with regards to how he was describing you. So really, he's the one looking some way, and it's like the a-hole that he is.
Enjoy your weekend!
