Y'all I'm back. (Although I don't think I was missed lol).
Its been months, I think. It's hard for me to
do life
and write about it on the Internet
but I enjoyed reading all of the posts I missed. It's fun in here
I've actually been recovering from burn out. I also get bouts of chronic fatigue so I'm not doing too much lately...but it all feels good.
I am not dating, but a funny thing happened! A friend of mine was gushing about a guy she met online and how she is enjoying their conversations etc, etc. Come to find out, it's a guy I dealt with very briefly who eventually faded out (no drama of nothing like that). For some reason now that they are talking (which I have 0 qualms with) I feel validated in my observation: which is that the quality of men around us (specifically me and her) are not completely trash. (Which is a good thing!
He and I faded out because I wasn't too keen on his personality (maybe he felt the same about me, idk). Nothing too terrible, it's just that we didn't mesh. But those traits I saw in him are ones that she actually likes lol. They have a first date coming up and I'm rooting for her to have a good time since she hasn't had a good date in a while (she just divorced).
New topic, lol. I have been putting myself out there off and on for 3+ years. But I just wasn't ready. I only started dating because "people" said I should. In reality I had not completely healed from my breakup. We were engaged (practically married). And I had to deal with dismantling all of the wedding planning. We were booked and everything chile ...
Anywho, so now, NOW, I'm back to me. I finally feel like I have grounding and I feel
whole for lack of a better word. I suspect the weather has something to do with it also. Looking back, there was just no way I could enter the market considering where my head and my heart was at.
I'm not completely ready to date yet, but I am. Much happier with where I am, so there's that.