*Update* Hey ladies,
Thank you for your much needed replies. I just wanted to clarify a few things. DH and I dated in person before he left for the military so we may be newlyweds, but we aren't strangers. Of course it's been a journey with our recent LDR but in terms of "knowing" each other I would just compare it with most spouses who never lived together before marrying.
I was raised an army brat along with a majority of my family being service members so I'm not all that unaware when it comes to the lifestyle, however, I would assume being married to the military is a bit different. I am enrolled in DEERS, however BAH hasn't kicked in yet and once it does, DH prefers to use the money to purchase a car together/bills. Sometimes it takes 1-6 months depending on how things get registered with finance. I know a few wives who didn't receive BAH until 6 months later. With this being known I have never depended on it whatsoever. We turned in all of the paperwork as of August. Of course the whole point of BAH with dependents is to pay for housing (which I need) and I've mentioned this but again, since I have a job... that seems to be out of the question for him.
We spoke a little about the situation at hand but now DH is appalled that I would even suggest counseling in this early of a stage within our marriage. I disagree with that statement as he did promise he'd go, and we never did premarital counseling to begin with. With that being said I just decided to take things one step at a time and leave it alone for the time being. I can definitely see where DH is coming from as I did put myself in that situation. However, my whole point is that regardless of if my decision to leave was wrong, if I would've stayed put, my check could have very well still been lost in the mail. I just don't see how it makes any difference. If I'm married, and we both work, and someone's pay gets snubbed...someone has to pay. What difference does spending money on a hotel differ from me not being able to make rent if I was still at my same place?
Point is, we are married, I didn't get paid this month, you did, I have no way of financially taking care of it, what now?
That being said, my boss emailed me to tell me that I will have to wait 90 days until I can receive a new check, and I will have to pay a $25 stopping fee on the old check. Luckily I get paid again for this month(different check) but I'm still struggling and that check won't get here until around the 10th of next month. As of now, my company owes me around ($1,600)
Before we tied the knot, we went through a checklist of important marital/make or break situations. Everything on that list (including the one I'm in) was made clear that we had the same views. I understand where my husband is coming from, he works very hard for the little pay that he gets. His issue is that he feels that lately I have been too needy. At this time he can't necessarily provide all of the things I need (especially without BAH, BAS, etc) and the deal was we would care for ourselves while apart. However, I am not in a financial situation to do that because of missed payment, yet he has the funds. This situation butted from a ONE time offense which is why I don't understand him. I asked for $30 for food, and then I asked if he could pay for my hotel in which at first he didn't complain. From my understanding, if a spouse needs necessities like food, water, and a place to sleep and can not make the necessary arrangements, the other spouse should step up. Obviously if my check had come, I wouldn't have had to ask him for anything. He's admitted that once he is home he will be able to take care of food, shelter, etc. But the way he's said things just rubbed me the wrong way, especially when he mentioned
"what are you going to do if I get deployed?" This to me says, you are on your own. We are partners, but my money is my money. At the same time he speaks of investing, savings, etc together. Okay, so, when we are apart I'm on my own??
I feel that he's still stuck in "me" mode financially right now. He's mentioned in a previous argument that his checks say
HIS name on it, and not mine. What he doesn't realize is that before a court judge 50% isn't his and about 1/3 via military belongs to me. However, I'm afraid he will just have to learn as he's taking 50/50 to a whole new level. I just really with he'd understand that we are in this together, we are one in the same. What's mine is yours, and what's yours is mine. Not what's yours is yours and what's mine is mine until we are in each other's faces.
As of now ladies, I'll just do the best I can to survive even though I'm 24 hours away from being homeless. It's just strange that in 6 weeks we will be "sharing" everything. As of now I'm stepping back and letting things happen as they may. I just want to show him that this is a partnership, I feel that a session with someone who understands marriages and how they work can show him that. Until then I will just sit back and be patient.