LifeafterLHCF
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It truly is hard to just be in God rather than do. Right now in this phase of my life where I'm not sure if I will make it to the end of the month money wise I have to really stay firm not to do anything outside of God as a it's a slap in the face of God. Do I feel God is able yes but will he provide I don't know. I know that is bad as it still shows how I don't trust God fully. It's scary to think about honestly.
I also notice while reflecting that I have placed myself in this position. I feel I limit myself too much in way of making money and go for safe jobs but want to complain about lack. I know I'm capable of doing much more but my resume and experience isn't reflecting such. I know your thinking why is this being posted here but for me it's all higher level in my eyes. I felt being poor and helping people was doing good but it's not. I don't want to covet my neighbor ie people here and in real life for having nice things and being able to really enjoy the luxury of life. I really wish I had a trusted person to take me under their wing and see what do I need to do in order to have better track-age. The trajectory of my life right now is going no where and I'm already 27 and that isn't cute.
I don't want to just spin my wheels and one can only pray so much. I don't want to keep just scurrying and not moving any where. I was listening to the sermon yesterday and pastor mentioned one shouldn't just move in order to find more money if they are planted in a good church or to make sure you will be able to find another good gospel based church.
Pray for me ladies I guess it's always darkest before the dawn.
I also notice while reflecting that I have placed myself in this position. I feel I limit myself too much in way of making money and go for safe jobs but want to complain about lack. I know I'm capable of doing much more but my resume and experience isn't reflecting such. I know your thinking why is this being posted here but for me it's all higher level in my eyes. I felt being poor and helping people was doing good but it's not. I don't want to covet my neighbor ie people here and in real life for having nice things and being able to really enjoy the luxury of life. I really wish I had a trusted person to take me under their wing and see what do I need to do in order to have better track-age. The trajectory of my life right now is going no where and I'm already 27 and that isn't cute.
I don't want to just spin my wheels and one can only pray so much. I don't want to keep just scurrying and not moving any where. I was listening to the sermon yesterday and pastor mentioned one shouldn't just move in order to find more money if they are planted in a good church or to make sure you will be able to find another good gospel based church.
Pray for me ladies I guess it's always darkest before the dawn.