I know it's just hair, but.... gosh!
I went to bed last night at 1:00 am.
I was DETERMINED to get my hair washed. I am on a weekly wash plan and something has come up EACH week. This was week number 4 without washing and I just could not and would not have a week 5. This in itself is not the odd thing.
Last night, I didn't panic or feel overwhelmed. I said vehemently, "I am taking care of me. I am going to keep my promises to me. I am doing this hair tonight and not letting another week pass without doing it."
I think I didn't get started until 10:30 or 11 pm. I fell into this Zen State.
I took my time with my hair. It were as if I had all the time in the world, or as if it were Friday early evening and I had the whole weekend ahead of me - which was NOT the case.
I changed my mind set and shifted into something that was akin to "the Flow" or a "Flow State" as it related to doing my hair. I even did my lactic acid peel for my melasma-stained skin BEFORE my hair and took my relaxing bath AFTER I did my hair. Order: Skin treatment, Washed and Conditioned Hair, Relaxing Bath.
I want some more of that, whatever that was last night!
I got up at 6 am this morning and I was not tired at all. I felt as if I had a full night's rest.
I am starting to think that part of the exhaustion for me when doing my hair late, arises from the inner conflict and worry and stress and panick I have drummed up within,
which I create for and within my own self, ANTICIPATING I will be tired.
Guess what? If can create that exhausting energy-draining panic, I can also ELIMINATE that exhausting, energy-draining panic. More importantly, I can
REPLACE that energy-draining panic
with that lovely Zen-like State of Flow on command, for the rest of my life.
My hair moment and session last night epitomized what it means to me to enjoy our hair.
I feel like I have had a Spiritual Awakening in that I felt so glad, even though it was super late. I was relaxed and at peace, totally immersed and submereged in the lucidity of my blessing of having such an incredible experience.
My hair has been taking me places and affording me experiences that I never would have foreseen, since I 've been on my hair journey. I certainly didn't anticipate this or foresee this experience.
I'm still reeling in awe.
Thank you
@Lylddlebit, for this thread . I don't think I would have made the connection or had this realization without this thread.