As a newly married person I would still like to reply because it hasn't been long for me.
Yes, I used to feel that way. I had to cut off a relationship with a sweet man (married, seperated for ions) because it was either him or my relationship with Jehovah God. I have never, ever, IN MY LIFE; felt such pain. I felt as if my heart, my arms, my hair, my eyes, my limbs had been ripped apart from my body while awake. I used to call him every day at 1:00 a.m. while he was driving home from work, right. Well, long after the break I would automatically wake up at 1 in the morning, even though I did not want to; and, even though I would make myself stay up as late as possible to try and stay asleep from exhaustion (physical and mental) to no avail. So, YES, I qualify, I raise my hand for knowing what you are going through.
My solution . . .
I dove right into the middle of my congregation, shored up my personal relationship with Jehovah God. Surrounded myself with like-minded people; those who are spiritually running, striving for the same goal as I (
1 Corinthians 15:33, ain't no joke).
I commenced to reading. Here are some of the publications that I read (so glad Amazon keeps records):
Healing for Damaged Emotions (Personal Growth Bookshelf)
NIV Womens Devotional Bible [Hardcover] by Zondervan,
He's Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys (Hardcover) highly recommended
In addition to reading the Bible, I read every book I could get my hands on authored by Michelle McKinney
How to Be Blessed and Highly Favored [Paperback] by Hammond, Michelle Mckinney
Why Do I Say "Yes" When I Need to Say "No"?: Escaping the Trap of Temptation... by Michelle Mc
What to Do Until Love Finds You: The Bestselling Guide to Preparing Yourself... by Michelle Mc. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS FOR WHERE YOU ARE, SERIOUSLY!!!!
If Singleness Is a Gift, What's the Return Policy? by Michelle Mc
Sassy, Single, and Satisfied: Secrets to Loving the Life You're Living...[Paperback]
By: Michelle McKinney Hammond (Author)
And;
How to Spot a Dangerous Man Before You Get Involved [Paperback] by Brown...[Paperback]
By: Sandra L. Brown
EVERY WOMEN SHOULD PURCHASE THIS BOOK. When it was recommended to me by a girlfriend I purchased one for each of my daughters. That would be FOUR, count 'em 4 copies!!!!! HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.
This list is not exhaustive. Once you start on these you will see others in their appendixes.
Don't know if you're a Christian or not; however, if you are, you are in a fight for your life. Yet, you can come off victoriously if you do NOT give up. Do not do things to corrode your self respect. No doubt, I'll bet you were intimate with your ex (rhetorical ?, am I correct?) Had you not been you wouldn't be feeling like you do. I did not overstand that until I read and meditated, and cried, and meditated, and begged for Jehovah's mercy and forgiveness. Girl, I could go on and on, can't you tell.
If you need to talk, I'm but an e-mail away from a phone number.
Hugzz,
LL