okay. i have an update for you guys. so on december 1st i came across a profile of this guy on okcupid. initially i thought he was cute, then i read his questions and thought he was a jacka$$ from the answers he gave. but then i clicked on his profile and thought it was really funny. i liked his sense of humor and could see us getting along as friends, even tho i wouldn't want to date him. anyway, i lingered on his profile for awhile before i left bc i didn't know what to say and i still thought he sounded like a jerk. a little voice in my head kept bothering me though, so finally i went back and decided to write something. all i wrote was "your profile is funny." those four words started it all i guess.
he responded with some lame comment about how these movies were based on him, "toy story" and something else i forgot. i told him the only movie that was based on me was catwoman and i didn't think halle berry did me any justice. he agreed and made a comment about how pretty my eyes were. that's when i realized we may be leading to something more than just friends. throughout the week we msg'd back and forth, several times a day. finally i got to the point where i thought we should meet, but i didnt want to be the one to initiate it. it was obvious to me though, that he wouldn't do it so quickly on his own. i was looking at this questions again and one of the questions were "if you found someone attractive would you ask them out?" he had answered "no." so i wrote to him, "is it true that if you liked a girl you wouldn't ask her out?" he said that used to be the case when he answered initially but that's not the case now. he goes "in fact i'll do it right now" and he asked me out in a cute little way and i told him i'd love to go out with him.
so he set the date for two days later and i suggested we go to barnes and nobles, my go to, online, first date option. so i'm a nervous wreck bc i dont like the way i look but knew i wouldnt have time to fix it, esp since i was half an hr late already and i knew i REALLY liked this guy (halfway thru msg'ing him on okc i thought to myself, "this is my next bf" ) but i was scared. like REALLY. i almost talked myself out of it. anyway i go there trying to see if i can sneak up on him and see what he looks like before i approached him. i go to the cafe where he's supposed to be and i see two asian guys. (he's asian, lol, chinese and vietnamese) and i see this gross looking overweight azn guy with spiked hair reading in the cafe. i thought, "omg, pls no" lol. then i saw another one who had his back turned. so i text him telling him which section i was in and i saw a hot, but short, asian guy walk past be. i thought to myself, "i doubt i'd be so lucky." shortly after i hear someone call my name and i turn around, and it's HIM! the hot but short asian guy, lol.
we were both nervous wrecks and could barely stand to look at each other w.o getting flustered but we managed through and then just kept extending the date. after the bookstore we went to get a slice of pizza, then we went to the petstore, then moviestop, then the arcade, then dinner, then to the hookah lounge. lol. we spent 10 hrs together and it only ended bc i had to go to work the next morning. also, we hit a snag. the whole time we were asking questions about rlshps and it seems like he was almost too good to be true. he owned his own house, own his car, could sing really well (he sang to me in chinese), was looking to get married, his parents were still together and he was close to them, hasn't had that many gfs, he is a perfect gentleman, always pulling out my chairs, opening my doors, holding w.e. is in my hand for me, etc. we had already scheduled another date for that friday. but something came up (which i wont mention) which made me uneasy.
i'm waiting for marriage before sex and something about what he said made me think he wouldn't be able to wait. so i asked him and he told me he couldn't wait. we decided then we should just be friends. we hung out for awhile more and then he drove me home and we held hands on the way there.
the next day i was really sad about the situation. i told my coworkers what happened and they encouraged me to tell him i still wanted to go out on friday if he would still be willing. at first i didnt want to but they talked me into it, also my friends and fam agreed. so i msg'd him later that day, he called me and agreed that we should and we set the date for the next day.
so this time i knew i had to wow this guy or else it would probably end and i'll miss out on a guy who was really great husband material. i dressed to kill and looked so good i could practically see this guy's tail wagging. lol. he couldn't stop staring at me and i knew i was off to a good start. so we had a great night, he kept telling me how gorgeous he thought i was. i did get a bit worried bc i thought maybe his attraction was just merely physical. but idtso at this point. he also hinted at being exclusive, i asked him if he's changed his mind about waiting for me. he hesitated and i told him to take his time thinking about it, but that i was still seeing other guys until i'm exclusive with someone. i could tell i was wearing him down. anyway we go to a restaurant, go race gokarts and went to the arcade again, which was a lot of fun. then we did something else that i cant remember. but we had a good time and he asked me to see him again the NEXT day. i agreed, even tho i kno that's an lhcf no-no. anyway yesterday we went out and he kept hinting at us being exclusive and asking questions relating to that. i asked him again if he'll wait for me. he told me that i was wearing him down
we continue on the night and i said something that led him to believe i was actively dating someone else. i'm not, but i continued to let him think i was. (tho i DID meet an engineer online recently who i exchanged numbers with, i hadn't yet met him or made plans to) anyway this seemed to really bother him and he was slowly losing it to the thought of me being w. someone else. also, the fact that i wouldn't give him any info on the other guy (something i learned on here, lol) seemed to add fuel to the fire. finally he told me he'd wait for me and asked me not to see this other guy. i could see he's serious, so now I'M beginning to get apprehensive. i didn't think he'd ask so quickly and want an answer right away.
i have dated a lot of asian men before, he hasn't dated any black women, ever. but i never have been in a rlshp with someone outside my race. i wasn't sure how that would work out. i was worried about his parents not accepting me. when i brought that up he told me they most likely would have issues w. my being black but that he doesn't care and he's his own person. im glad he says that NOW, but he is close with his parents and i see this potentially becoming a problem, plus i would want to be close to his parents and i'm not sure if that could happen. i wanted him to know the flaws in my personality bc i didnt want him to find out what they were and to leave me for it. basically, i was scared. i thought i was ready but when it came down to it, i wasn't so certain anymore.
after we left the movie theater, he showed me his house which i thought was really nice. i can't believe he's my age and he actually owns it. he then brought me home and we talked on the phone til 6am where we discussed things and he kept asking me to be exclusive. i finally agreed around like 5:50 am, lol. we set up a stay at home movie date at my place and we hung up. anyway, that's that for now. i'm glad i can finally contribute a success story. i hope this one works out. he is only my third bf and i have a lot to learn in rlshps still, but i'm confident i can be a good gf. i am kind of sad that the courting period is over so quickly, but he told me that when i'm w. him it would never be over, it will just get better. we'll see about that...