Hugs!!! Please pray to the lord for strength, understanding and faith I'm the area where they are weak! Only god can answer your questions and trust me I understand the why me questions you have, it's s everyday struggle but the lord has great blessing in store for those who believe in him, have faith he will bring you through this, Psalm 30:5 weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Your 'night' may not be a single night but trust me the lord will bring you pure joy if you trust in him.
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