I've been posting off an on over the past years about my relationship. I kept ignoring signs but after reading this thread.... He is the spokesperson for this! Mind you, I could've walked away numerous imes but I didn't because the charming side got me every time. I get so mad at myself for enduring this for this long. I can tell you so many things, but I will just name few things that I've endured: He is charming and sweet and then turns to Lucifer. Cheated, sex has no meaning to it, he'll be affectionate one minute then claim he's not an affectionate person, he will put me down (way down) and then try to counter the insults with something positive like "I'm doing this for you."; got mad because I had a facebook account and he said its nothing but drama, gave me so much grief about it, I deleted it, yet he is still on there; can insult me at the drop of a dime, yet if I say something to him he screams bloody murder; threatens to sleep with other women; lies but says he doesn't like liars; Always playing the victim role, blaming me for everything, says something and when I repeat verbatim what he said, he says "I didn't say that". Says I don't listen, etc. has a dr. jekyll/Mr. hyde mentality, is always right, he's unique because no one thinks like him, etc. Well yesterday was it for me. We were snowed in and I wanted to do "couple" things, but he basically, stayed to himself and only called on me if he needed something. Anyhoo, so yesterday, all I said was babe, I would like more of affection from you like the other day, I really enjoy it. HE WENT OFF. How dare I define who he is! I make him feel inadequate, he's not an affectionate person, it only comes in moments, etc. etc. etc. For me to go get my affection from somewhere else, he's done with this relationship... I was standing there like what did I say wrong, he said you came at me negatively. I said how, He says..."I don't remember"..... and continues to go off. Later we went our separate ways and I went to his parents house, who said the same thing, that he needs help and it's going to get worse. He texts me and says he is at the hospital for chest pain (turned out to be gas). I go to the hospital, now he's my friend again....talking to me. Once we get out the hospital... I'm scum again. We get home after midnight and go to sleep. I have to go work and he's off (doctor's note). This man wakes up and tells me "I'm not signing the lease (we are up for lease renewal NOW) I want out of this bad relationship, it's not healthy for me." In my mind , I had terrible visions of doing things to him because of all the unbelievable things he's done to me, but I kept my composure and said WOW, right at the deadline, you tell me this. He says yep and continues saying nasty remarks. I so pissed. I told him it's pathetic that you wake up with a nasty spirit in you and walked out the door. So now I have to make my move. I was so pissed, I didn't catch the train, I drove into work because I wanted to be by myself. Cried the whole way in, I won't be crying anymore.
