crlsweetie912
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Sad. We didn't fight but he left in a huff. I just need him to understand that he needs to carve out time for us.
Man I had an epiphany today. I grew up in an abusive, neglectful household. And to try to cope, I thought that if I was the good, perfect child that my parents would have no choice but to love me.
I carried that into adulthood. Didn't say how I felt, suppressed my anger and hurt, let people treat me any kind of way. I have come a long way.
But our disagreement yesterday put me RIGHT back in my childhood. I didn't want to tell him how upset I was for fear that he would leave. And when he left last night symbolically it felt like he was leaving for good. That's why I was so scared. I'm used to people not liking something I say or do and bouncing. He has never shown me that, but the fear is still there.
I didn't realize that junk was still with me.
I don't know yet. Once I get my health in check, go back to therapy.Hugs..glad you were able to recognize that. So what are u going to do? That is a lot to take in mentally.
Wow a year already. That's awesome!!!!!!!! Congratulations.My SO is out of town for the week. He's in his hometown to see 2 soccer games and do some work at another office for his company. I've been giving him his space while he's away. At first I was worried he'd be too wrapped up at home and work to remember to call or text, especially with the 3 hour time difference... but he's been very much in touch. He'll be back on Monday and then we have 6 days until I leave for China for 2 weeks.... And then when I get back, we will celebrate our 1 year anniversary. I'll be jet lagged but I'll be present. Can't wait for March to end!
I guess I am too friendly. It irks me when I have men on my IG making comments that should be made by my SO. Today I posted a picture of my Communion for TBT and this guy posted in French telling me, "How I am his sunshine and his love." Umm, DELETE and BLOCK! He is almost 40. Do you mean to tell me, he'd be happy if some guy wrote that on his lady's page? I swear dudes just like to start stuff. Just say you like the pic or I was a cute lil' girl and KIM. Why, be extra? *sucks teeth*
I guess I am too friendly. It irks me when I have men on my IG making comments that should be made by my SO. Today I posted a picture of my Communion for TBT and this guy posted in French telling me, "How I am his sunshine and his love." Umm, DELETE and BLOCK! He is almost 40. Do you mean to tell me, he'd be happy if some guy wrote that on his lady's page? I swear dudes just like to start stuff. Just say you like the pic or I was a cute lil' girl and KIM. Why, be extra? *sucks teeth*
Protect your IG. Like ironclad protection so only people you want to see your IG see it. And only allow friends/ppl you know to see your IG.
In this age of overexposure - anything goes so you have to protect yourself.
Man that's awful....Mr. Was with me when I had four wisdom teeth taken out and I don't know how I would have made it without him.My bf is in NJ working on some real estate deals. I miss him. I'm supposed to have oral surgery and he was going to go with me and I might have to do it this week and he's not here
Man that's awful....Mr. Was with me when I had four wisdom teeth taken out and I don't know how I would have made it without him.
Which is apart of what I have to do. . Maybe I can push it off until Monday when he's back....I think my vidacin will get me to Monday :-/