2012 - Christian Random Thoughts Thread

crlsweetie912 said:
I am feeling really lonely right now. My ex wants us to get back together. We had a long come to Jesus moment yesterday. I don't think that we are supposed to be together. We had way more bad times than good times when we were a couple........But now I'm second guessing and I'm thinking maybe there's nothing better for me.....I don't want to make a horrible decision. Lord I will stand still........
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Sis, listen to me. Do NOT make any hasty decisions. Usually our first thought is the right one. If you don't think you belong together, then don't...but, TRUST GOD! The fact that you said you are feeling lonely is a sign that the enemy will use your feelings to cause you to make a quick decision....don't sis, please.

I will be praying for you. Your life is precious. :bighug:
 
I've been trying to find my way back for almost a whole 2 or 3 years. I get all excited about God and then the fire for Him dwindles away....especially once life's trials set in.
There was once a time when I was so on fire for Him. He took me from some deep, dark, ugly valleys and brought me out of them. And I always talked to Him. And we were good. I didn't just believe He was there....I knew for sure that he was there.

Then somehow I drifted away and I found myself in those valleys again...alone. And I keep trying to get that old thing back...rekindle that flame I had for Him. But for some reason, it's not working.

Even my friends are walking with Him. And I see His goodness in them and around them. But I find myself just sitting here stuck. And the certainty I once had about Him is no longer there. Questions creep in that make me wonder if what we had was ever real. I beg to hear from Him and then I don't. Then it's all down hill from there.

Sometimes it feels like you're falling, limbs flailing, but you never hit the ground. But you are definitely being sucked down and the light that once shone on the way out has grown dimmer and dimmer.
Please pray for me that I find my way back and that I can stay there.:yep:
 
Nice & Wavy said:
Sis, listen to me. Do NOT make any hasty decisions. Usually our first thought is the right one. If you don't think you belong together, then don't...but, TRUST GOD! The fact that you said you are feeling lonely is a sign that the enemy will use your feelings to cause you to make a quick decision....don't sis, please.

I will be praying for you. Your life is precious. :bighug:
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Thank you sis....I know the answer in my heart. I have been waiting on the Lord in this area for a long time. I know I a a GREAT woman with morals, values and lots of love to give to the right person. I don't believe I should settle for less than someone who treats me like a queen. It's just really hard.
 
crlsweetie912 said:
Thank you sis....I know the answer in my heart. I have been waiting on the Lord in this area for a long time. I know I a a GREAT woman with morals, values and lots of love to give to the right person. I don't believe I should settle for less than someone who treats me like a queen. It's just really hard.
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I know its hard...but, could it be that the right man that the Lord has for you is right around the corner? You know, I've learned something over the years...anytime what God has for me is right there, the enemy comes to put a roadblock before it. I must see it for what it is, pray, pray some more, hear, hear some more...then make a decision. I won't move until He says "GO!"

You will know because the Holy Spirit will speak to your heart. You will know the Spirit of Truth and the spirit of error.

:love2:
 
Nice & Wavy said:
I know its hard...but, could it be that the right man that the Lord has for you is right around the corner? You know, I've learned something over the years...anytime what God has for me is right there, the enemy comes to put a roadblock before it. I must see it for what it is, pray, pray some more, hear, hear some more...then make a decision. I won't move until He says "GO!"

You will know because the Holy Spirit will speak to your heart. You will know the Spirit of Truth and the spirit of error.

:love2:
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Thanks so much for the encouragement......I am believing that God has something amazing for me. I'm in the house of worship preparing to praise Him in advance......:reddancer:
 
Psalm 30:5 For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
 
I'm sorta glad I forced myself to watch a sermon today because it has me thinking a bit.
I almost feel as though I deserve to have nothing good. I honestly feel why bother trying most days. I see some who like take time to care for themselves and I run myself into the ground. I guess in my mind those who are cared for now where always cared for. I don't expect anyone to motivate or encourage me as I don't have the it factor. I have seen on countless occasions the pretty chick or the one with the it factor being helped. I was always told oh you can handle it and you will be ok. So I learned to just push but I'm broken and tattered.

I want to believe God can restore my soul and I can lead a great ending. I just can't get out of misery. I really at times want to check out, but I know I can't afford it. I don't have family to carry me for any length of time. So that means I have to run raggedy.

I sometimes wonder how it feels to be really blessed like not being so legalistic or having to be so hard on yourself bc you didn't have to struggle therefore you don't have such low self worth. To expect good things not bad things. In my head Im battling expecting to be fired but also Im trying to think this is the 3rd time being in your field this will be the charm. I see it as a blessing with certain flaws. I just want a normal life where I'm not so worn and weary. I read there suppose to be rest for the weary I guess that won't happen until death.

I hope to be here long enough to at least be able to get on my feet and help others who are going through what I'm going through. It's not a nice feeling that you are at the bottom and you always have to work up.
 
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kweenameena said:
I've been trying to find my way back for almost a whole 2 or 3 years. I get all excited about God and then the fire for Him dwindles away....especially once life's trials set in.
There was once a time when I was so on fire for Him. He took me from some deep, dark, ugly valleys and brought me out of them. And I always talked to Him. And we were good. I didn't just believe He was there....I knew for sure that he was there.

Then somehow I drifted away and I found myself in those valleys again...alone. And I keep trying to get that old thing back...rekindle that flame I had for Him. But for some reason, it's not working.

Even my friends are walking with Him. And I see His goodness in them and around them. But I find myself just sitting here stuck. And the certainty I once had about Him is no longer there. Questions creep in that make me wonder if what we had was ever real. I beg to hear from Him and then I don't. Then it's all down hill from there.

Sometimes it feels like you're falling, limbs flailing, but you never hit the ground. But you are definitely being sucked down and the light that once shone on the way out has grown dimmer and dimmer.
Please pray for me that I find my way back and that I can stay there.:yep:
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kweenameena:

I've been in similar shoes before, and will pray for you. Other than others praying for you, get deep (and I mean, really deep :bookworm:) into the word and online sermons. Right now you are in a neutral place where the enemy can be very seducing. Immersing yourself deep in Scripture will push him away and draw you closer to the Lord. It'll be hard work (and possibly even boring) at first, but if you really want to find your way back, you must immerse yourself. Additionally, limit your exposure to any (if any) worldly desires, like certain music, tv shows, activities, etc. This is a fight for your spirit; fight.
 
GoddessMaker said:
I'm sorta glad I forced myself to watch a sermon today because it has me thinking a bit.
I almost feel as though I deserve to have nothing good. I honestly feel why bother trying most days. I see some who like take time to care for themselves and I run myself into the ground. I guess in my mind those who are cared for now where always cared for. I don't expect anyone to motivate or encourage me as I don't have the it factor. I have seen on countless occasions the pretty chick or the one with the it factor being helped. I was always told oh you can handle it and you will be ok. So I learned to just push but I'm broken and tattered.

I want to believe God can restore my soul and I can lead a great ending. I just can't get out of misery. I really at times want to check out, but I know I can't afford it. I don't have family to carry me for any length of time. So that means I have to run raggedy.

I sometimes wonder how it feels to be really blessed like not being so legalistic or having to be so hard on yourself bc you didn't have to struggle therefore you don't have such low self worth. To expect good things not bad things. In my head Im battling expecting to be fired but also Im trying to think this is the 3rd time being in your field this will be the charm. I see it as a blessing with certain flaws. I just want a normal life where I'm not so worn and weary. I read there suppose to be rest for the weary I guess that won't happen until death.

I hope to be here long enough to at least be able to get on my feet and help others who are going through what I'm going through. It's not a nice feeling that you are at the bottom and you always have to work up.
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GoddessMaker:
How often do you read the Bible?
 
GoddessMaker said:
loolalooh I don't read a set amount or anything. Yesterday I read Mark 10:13-14. Why do you ask?
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GoddessMaker:

Okay. How do you feel about reading the book of Psalms (even if you've read it before)? Reading 2-3 chapters a day?

I ask because your words remind me of how I used to speak of myself. (I still do, at times, but not nearly as much as before.)

When I read Psalms, it tends to drown out the thoughts I have about myself. The more I read, the better. Have you tried that alternative? Not reading a few verses, but actually reading 2-3 chapters and meditating on it? Psalm 1 all the way through to Psalm 150?
 
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loolalooh I use to try and do more chapters than verses a day and I felt boggled down. That's why I do verses..however I may try to incorporate a bit more.
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I try to voice how I feel more than I have in the past simple bc if I keep this bottled in I feel I would do something harmful. I don't want to do that as there are alot of consequences to that not just the money as I use to look at as but other issues.

It's been 2 years since my last attempt and I would never think I would be in the place I'm in now. All I wanted at that time was my own place,a job in my field and to be on the track of weight loss. If I honestly look at my life right now I have all three. But I guess deep down in side I never am satisfied with myself. I was reading on another site about chicks who treat themselves throughout their weight loss journey and I said I probable will never do that until I hit 150. In my mind what seems good isn't. When I do more on a workout than I normally can I think well it was ok you should have done more or why did you have to push in the first place it should just be automatic. This hyper critical-ness is so hard to be. I feel dumb for smiling and think why are you smiling you have so much wrong with you. Then watching the video kila82 just posted it makes me feel bad for feeling so totally desolate. I'm a work in progress a unfolding masterpiece if I could only think that when I feel like nothing I would be ok.
 
GM I don't think these great things automatically sometimes I have them posted all over my desk at work, I say scripture to myself, I have it posted in my house where I kno I will see them. I SUBMERGE myself in it until it becomes an automatic behavior :D
 
GoddessMaker said:
loolalooh I use to try and do more chapters than verses a day and I felt boggled down. That's why I do verses..however I may try to incorporate a bit more.
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I try to voice how I feel more than I have in the past simple bc if I keep this bottled in I feel I would do something harmful. I don't want to do that as there are alot of consequences to that not just the money as I use to look at as but other issues.

It's been 2 years since my last attempt and I would never think I would be in the place I'm in now. All I wanted at that time was my own place,a job in my field and to be on the track of weight loss. If I honestly look at my life right now I have all three. But I guess deep down in side I never am satisfied with myself. I was reading on another site about chicks who treat themselves throughout their weight loss journey and I said I probable will never do that until I hit 150. In my mind what seems good isn't. When I do more on a workout than I normally can I think well it was ok you should have done more or why did you have to push in the first place it should just be automatic. This hyper critical-ness is so hard to be. I feel dumb for smiling and think why are you smiling you have so much wrong with you. Then watching the video kila82 just posted it makes me feel bad for feeling so totally desolate. I'm a work in progress a unfolding masterpiece if I could only think that when I feel like nothing I would be ok.
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GoddessMaker:

Voicing how you feel is definitely a good thing.:yep: Do not keep it bottled up inside.

I want you to feel more hope and confidence, which is why Psalms is a suggestion. You won't feel boggled down if you read a couple chapters in that book. Through Psalms, you can experience many levels of emotion - sadness, praise, anger, and hope - but the hope is what prevails and becomes imprinted on your mind in time.

Can you do me a favor? Can you read Psalm 42 and we discuss it here?
 
Ooooh ima read it too!!! Gotta run to the store real quick will read it as soon as I get back!! Yay!! Lol
 
GoddessMaker and kila82: Awesome. Discussion time:

This Psalm was written by the descendants of Korah (a Levite who led a rebellion against Moses). These descendants remained faithful to God and served in the Temple as musicians and assistants.

Let's look first at verses 1-5. What are your thoughts/interpretations on these verses, on what's being said?
 
If you were accused at work of being a Christian, would there be enough evidence to convict you? Or would you be found not-guilty of all charges?
 
loolalooh this person is like me hurting and tired and wanting to know when God is going to arrive. Your trying to put on the happy face and praise but then your situation isn't changing and your being teased by the naysayers..it's very damning on the mental aspects esp because one can feel foolish in the midst even when they are still trying to make strides.
 
Nice & Wavy said:
If you were accused at work of being a Christian, would there be enough evidence to convict you? Or would you be found not-guilty of all charges?
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This is a good question. There wouldn't be enough evidence ... a little, but not enough. I need to work on there being so much evidence that they would convict me immediately.:look:
 
GoddessMaker said:
loolalooh this person is like me hurting and tired and wanting to know when God is going to arrive. Your trying to put on the happy face and praise but then your situation isn't changing and your being teased by the naysayers..it's very damning on the mental aspects esp because one can feel foolish in the midst even when they are still trying to make strides.
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GoddessMaker:

Yep. This person was very discouraged. He was exiled to a place far from Jerusalem. He felt separated from God. Like you, he is hurting and tired and wanting God.

Verse 3:
My tears have been my food day and night,
While they continually say to me,
“Where is your God?”
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(I'll wait for kila82 before we move on to the next several verses.)
 
loolalooh and @ GoddessMaker

Verses 1-5 describe the person writing this as desperately seeking after God even during a troubling situation. No matter what people say no matter how many tears they have shed they constantly go back to seek the Lord

ETA: sorry that took so long the supermarket was packed and when I got home the kids were acting crazy lol :/
 
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kila82 said:
loolalooh and @ GoddessMaker

Verses 1-5 describe the person writing this is as desperately seeking after God even during a troubling situation. No matter what people say no matter how many tears they have shed they constantly go back to seek the Lord
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Yep. Desperation, discouragement, hurting, tears, ... are all part of these verses 1-5. Separation from the Lord. Wanting, seeking the Lord.

GoddessMaker and kila82:

Okay, let's now look at verses 6-11. What are your thoughts/interpretations of these verses?
 
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