I've been reflecting on 2012 and I've learned sooooo much this year. Half way through the year I started calling it the worst year of my life because I had so many ups and downs and the downs weren't just downs... they were huge pitfalls. But, now as I sit back and reflect I'm considering this year one of the best years of my life. I'm ranking it in the best category because I did it WITH God. 2007 was a very bad year for me and I went through it alone because I was so spiritually immature that I felt God left me but the reality was I had turned my back on Him. So I suffered more than I should have because I refused to turn to God.
Well THANK GOD that was NOT the case in 2012. I prayed more this year than I have ever prayed in my life and although the praying did not take my test and trials away, it did give me a new praise. The words "I'm still standing" have never meant so much to me before. God took me back to the basics where I was just happy to be alive. The enemy has attacked me from all directions this year. I have tripped so many times (not tripped over sin necessarily, but tripped over my emotions) that I thought God would get angry with me but he never did. He just picked me up, dusted me off, and told me to start over again.
The fact that I can sit here and even type this is a praise in itself. The enemy tried to take me out this year. He literally tried to kill me but my God said NO. I'm so thankful that what felt like it was going to be my worst year has actually turned into one of my best years. And the most amazing part about it is that for the most part my blessings this year were not tangible. My biggest blessing from God has been wisdom and that will make my tangible blessings, like a new job, a husband, new furniture and all the other things I'm praying for, so much more worth it when I get them.
This year I focused on SURVIVING. "I'm still standing" got me through the year but in 2013 I'm focusing on SOARING. I'm taking my new found wisdom and I'm soaring high! Thank you God for everything that waits ahead. I'll take the good and the bad as long as you're by my side. I LOVE YOU LORD!
Happy New Year to my sisters in Christ!
