2012 - Christian Random Thoughts Thread

[LifeafterLHCF]

^^^u kno what helps me when I start to feel like this GoddessMaker? I visualize myself taking all those thoughts, worries and concerns in my hands and literally handing them over to God. I constantly say "I submit these concerns to u God" throughout the day

Fear and worry go hand in hand and are not of God. The enemy wants us to focus on the issues of life because it makes those issues appear to be GIGANTIC which can make God seem smaller. Give God those concerns! U don't have to carry them around! It makes me feel lighter when I do this and kno that God will only reveal to me what I am ready to receive/handle

I have been the type as long as I remember that believes God places all these issues for me to deal with bc it suppose to make me better or grow.I guess the things I'm going through steam from deeper things that I'm dealing with but I only put surface things here.If I was to real dig deep and write some folks will think Im the devil's sister.I would love to enjoy this carefree life some christians seem to have..I don't know what is wrong with me that I seem to attract and able to focus on negative and never on great positive things..

 

[kila82]

^^^^Christian life is def not carefree! It evens says in the Bible "when u fall..."

The difference between the people that appear to be carefree and u and I is that they cast their cares on God and have faith that whatever they are going thru it will all work out for them in the end like the bible says

When I don't read my bible everyday and pray I get caught up in the issues of life. My life is never going to be perfect...here on earth. I wouldn't expect it to be easy for us this is not our home afterall. However God has equipped all of us with his Word and THAT is what will allow us to have joy even during rough times.

Read his word and pray it WILL change your way of thinking and grow ur faith I have a bible reading personal challenge going on right now lol and i already am feeling different...better

 

[kila82]

Also focusing on the negative is a trick of the enemy! I need u to memorize Jeremiah 29:11 and say it everytime a negative thought comes in ur brain. U gotta start fighting the enemy with the Word if u want him to leave u alone.

 

[loolalooh]

Also focusing on the negative is a trick of the enemy! I need u to memorize Jeremiah 29:11 and say it everytime a negative thought comes in ur brain. U gotta start fighting the enemy with the Word if u want him to leave u alone.

Even though this wasn't for me, this is the second time I'm hearing this Scripture in the span of 20 minutes. (Also heard it in a sermon today.) Off to go meditate on it ...

Thanks.

 

[Shimmie]

^^^u kno what helps me when I start to feel like this GoddessMaker? I visualize myself taking all those thoughts, worries and concerns in my hands and literally handing them over to God. I constantly say "I submit these concerns to u God" throughout the day

Fear and worry go hand in hand and are not of God. The enemy wants us to focus on the issues of life because it makes those issues appear to be GIGANTIC which can make God seem smaller. Give God those concerns! U don't have to carry them around! It makes me feel lighter when I do this and kno that God will only reveal to me what I am ready to receive/handle

kila82... Your posts are such a blessing. You have a beautiful 'Ministry' and God is using you far more then you realize.

Keep sharing. God bless you. :Rose:

 

[kila82]

Wow thank u ladies *blush* just trying to take it one day at a time...trying to stay focused and grow

 

[LifeafterLHCF]

kila82 I can respect your pov.

I think my walk in Christ is very warped. I believe to a part I want to stop all together and breathe. I feels so draining to me. I can't fully function while trying to think of things bibical. I want to be happy and I may have to try other avenues in order to reach this. I'm tired of crying inside due to religious barriers. I have been at this walk since I was 9 and I thought I would always be a christian and thought as I got older it would get better. I find the older I get the more draining. So much judgement and I don't find myself adequate in comparison to other saints or just in life. I wonder if one can be grateful but still feel real about their own life. I have read,mediated and dug as much as I can in this christian thing. I feel heavy right now and will leave my cross because God why would you make me and then allow all this calamaity in the world and in my own world. I know not everyone will go to heaven I wonder if I will be one who goes to hell bc I can't get it right.

 

[loolalooh]

kila82 I can respect your pov.

I think my walk in Christ is very warped. I believe to a part I want to stop all together and breathe. I feels so draining to me. I can't fully function while trying to think of things bibical. I want to be happy and I may have to try other avenues in order to reach this. I'm tired of crying inside due to religious barriers. I have been at this walk since I was 9 and I thought I would always be a christian and thought as I got older it would get better. I find the older I get the more draining. So much judgement and I don't find myself adequate in comparison to other saints or just in life. I wonder if one can be grateful but still feel real about their own life. I have read,mediated and dug as much as I can in this christian thing. I feel heavy right now and will leave my cross because God why would you make me and then allow all this calamaity in the world and in my own world. I know not everyone will go to heaven I wonder if I will be one who goes to hell bc I can't get it right.

GoddessMaker, many frustrated Christians face what you've described. Many want to stop all together and breathe. Many find the walk draining. It is easy to find "happiness" in the world, but at what cost? There are times when I want to leave my cross and go to a club, dance, and drink all night. That'll certainly make my flesh happy, but at what cost?

You are more than adequate, Goddessmaker. God created you in His image. Other saints may be struggling but not telling you what is going on behind closed doors.

Keep on reading, meditating, and digging. Will it get easier? For some, yes. For some, no. What is guaranteed is that if you endure this spiritual walk, God will reward you in heaven. The "happiness" you are seeking now, will, at the very least be acquired in heaven. It is not a "happiness" the world can satisfy.

Why does God allow all the calamity in the world? Because, he has given the world to the enemy temporarily. This is a sinful world, and the result is calamity and all the bad we see. Our faith is being tested in the process, and you must hold on. Hold on for your eternal life in heaven. If you want to go to heaven, you certainly can by holding on.

We shed so many tears here on earth, but in heaven, there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more suffering (Rev. 21).

 

[kila82]

^^^i see mama

Remember Jesus didn't die for me and u to have "religion" he died for us to be able to have a personal, real relationship with God.

I too have been saved since I was 9 but I have just recently started to kno God personally for myself. All those years I was in church, reading the bible, dealing with church folks...I still felt do empty, unloved and confused.

If u feel like ur walk is a problem dare I say ur focused on the legalism and not the relationship.

Salvation is not something u can earn. U are saved because u accepted God into your heart and u believe he loves u. Ur actions, thoughts, etc cannot be ur focus or u will continue to be unfulfilled. I don't believe in religion. I go to church wearing jeans and I could care less what anyone thinks of me because God loves me thru all my crap. I don't focus on the "rules" because I kno I cannot follow them in my own strength. God knew that too that's why he sent Jesus because we are not perfect creatures. I will pray that u don't let ur bad church experiences and ur past keep u from the loving relationship with God that is set aside for u.

U must have an amazing call on ur life mama. The devil is really trying to keep a stronghold on ur mind. He will not win tho ur already saved, but he's gonna def try his hardest to keep u discouraged *hugs*

ETA: this was a response to GoddessMaker

 

[LifeafterLHCF]

loolalooh and kila82 I feel both responses but this is something I have battled for such a long time.Some will say oh we have prayed for you and only want the best but I know at the end of the day I don't feel that. I wanted to walk away Jan 1 start a fresh year. I almost feel hostage by my walk I know all about walking out of the faith and all the things that can happen if you do.I think if I walk now what if I was just around the corner to greatness. But all I see damanation. I'm not only focused on my life but the life of others.

I keep battling about this walk.I know to not worship two gods as God is a jealous God. I know to respect the faith and the body. I just so tired of trying to be something I don't think I can be. The world and the body expect someone who has so called overcome some things to be chipper.I can't seem to wrap my mind around such. Yes I could have been a street whore on drugs and drinking..many psyc are baffled that I am not due to the life I have come through. At times I wonder if I could do something to aid with the growing pains. I no longer want to die as I use to. But now I'm left with this life that I have to put a pretty mask on.When I look at my siggy I see a girl who has on a cute mask smiling when deep down she is bleak and blue..but in the same breathe she has so much to give and so much to say that could help someone else..I don't want to abort my dream but I feel she may never come to full term.

Thank you ladies for trying to uplift a possible runaway.

 

[loolalooh]

loolalooh and kila82 I feel both responses but this is something I have battled for such a long time.Some will say oh we have prayed for you and only want the best but I know at the end of the day I don't feel that. I wanted to walk away Jan 1 start a fresh year. I almost feel hostage by my walk I know all about walking out of the faith and all the things that can happen if you do.I think if I walk now what if I was just around the corner to greatness. But all I see damanation. I'm not only focused on my life but the life of others.

I keep battling about this walk.I know to not worship two gods as God is a jealous God. I know to respect the faith and the body. I just so tired of trying to be something I don't think I can be. The world and the body expect someone who has so called overcome some things to be chipper.I can't seem to wrap my mind around such. Yes I could have been a street whore on drugs and drinking..many psyc are baffled that I am not due to the life I have come through. At times I wonder if I could do something to aid with the growing pains. I no longer want to die as I use to. But now I'm left with this life that I have to put a pretty mask on.When I look at my siggy I see a girl who has on a cute mask smiling when deep down she is bleak and blue..but in the same breathe she has so much to give and so much to say that could help someone else..I don't want to abort my dream but I feel she may never come to full term.

Thank you ladies for trying to uplift a possible runaway.

GoddessMaker: This breaks my heart, as you remind me of myself in some ways (just as you remind kila82 as herself).

What we see ahead of ourselves is not always what God sees before us. The damnation you see is false. There is a reason why God put it on kila's heart to share Jeremiah 29:11 ... to you ... and for me to see. Would you believe me if I told I woke up this morning thinking my future is hopeless? that life is only going to get worse?

Believe me, I hear you when you say you've been at this battle for a long time. Many of us can certainly relate to you in that respect. But hold on with all of your might. Don't let the enemy take you away.

Please. Let's talk this through. If you want us to get real deep, then we can get real deep.

 

[kila82]

^^^i agree.

I have not really shared much of my personal life but I can. I just read a devotional about confessing to ur brothers and sisters in Christ. I have no life lolol I don't mind putting it out on the table for as long as it takes. I will not judge u at all. There isn't much I haven't done or thought to do unfortunately.

 

[LifeafterLHCF]

loolalooh and kila82 both of you are going to have me near tears..that takes alot for me seriously.I think if I could cry it would be great but I can't seem to allow myself to do it.

I wonder if I'm crazy to feel dumb to be optimistic about life.I see both of you as true strong women there are quite few of you ladies here.I'm trying to push through right now and not walk off the proper path.

I'm trying to kill myself to certain things ie sexual thoughts,negative thinking,improper focus etc.Its been some of the hardest thing to go through right now. I find that my dream is proper as it does help others. I just want to be great in the sense that I am well rounded and on the proper growth path..Thank you ladies again..

 

[auparavant]

I sincerely hope the teacher knows that we now cheat via smartphones in class. erplexed Today, I felt like walking out of church and declaring I no longer believe. Sigh....

 

[LoveisYou]

I really like Heather Lindsey, she's like a ray of sunshine.....and she's real - open and honest. I can see her testimony helping a lot of women.

 

[LoveisYou]

When you surrendered your life to Christ you did not cease to have a free will. God created you to become His child, not a puppet.

Throughout the Bible you will find God referring to His people as “His children”. Remember the Gospel of John 1:12 …

But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.

When you have a free will it means you are free to choose:

What thoughts you entertain in your mind.
What words you allow to come out of your mouth.
What attitudes you allow to be cultivated in your life.
What daily habits you form by your daily actions, words and thoughts.
However, not only are you free to choose, you have the responsibility to choose what you think, say and do!

Over the years, so many times I have heard comments such as:
I am praying for God to control my mind, so I can think pure thoughts.

What do you think about that comment?

This notion is offered “supported” by the verse found in Romans 8:14 which says “Those who are led by the Spirit of God as the sons of God”.

Firstly, remember God did not create you to be a puppet on a string! He created you to become a son or daughter.

Secondly, this verse in Romans 8:14 (and others) says we are to be “led” by the Spirit, not “controlled” by the Spirit.

Let us go back to John 1:12.
But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God. The word “right” is translated from the greek word “exousia” which in it’s meaning includes: power, right, authority, strength.
(English Standard Version of the Bible).

Remember the time that Moses cried out to God when Pharaoh and his men were coming after them?

How did God respond? With a rebuke! God’s response was:

What is in your hand? (He had a rod in his hand which represented authority). Do you see a comparison there?

What do you have in your hand (at your disposal)? The authority, power and strength delegated to YOU from God, to overcome anything.

 

[loolalooh]

loolalooh and kila82 both of you are going to have me near tears..that takes alot for me seriously.I think if I could cry it would be great but I can't seem to allow myself to do it.

I wonder if I'm crazy to feel dumb to be optimistic about life.I see both of you as true strong women there are quite few of you ladies here.I'm trying to push through right now and not walk off the proper path.

I'm trying to kill myself to certain things ie sexual thoughts,negative thinking,improper focus etc.Its been some of the hardest thing to go through right now. I find that my dream is proper as it does help others. I just want to be great in the sense that I am well rounded and on the proper growth path..Thank you ladies again..

GoddessMaker:

No, you are not dumb to be optimistic about life. The enemy likes to tear us down with such thoughts while the Holy Spirit likes to build us up. Pay close attention to the Holy Spirit within you. It is in God's full power to "prosper you". It is through the Holy Spirit within you that you will find true joy as Paul found joy in his prison cell.

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You can overcome these sins by running to the Lord, especially when tempted. Don't run towards the flesh; run to the Lord. It can take time.

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Kila knows what she's talking about when she daily reading of the Bible brings about change. When I was reading the Bible daily, a lot of my sins died with the "daily food". I encourage you to read a chapter daily and meditate on it. It'll be difficult at first. It may even be boring at first. But in time, you will notice a change. It may not come quickly, but it will come.

You will be great. God has great plans to use you. Big things are ahead for you. Just hold on and you will see.

 

[loolalooh]

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[kila82]

loolalooh I agree with everything that u said!!!

GoddessMaker I have a strong feeling u are going to be great as well I have faith in u mama! U are more than an overcomer!!

 

[DaiseeDay]

GODessMaker I feel just like you.

I was told when I first got saved that I would be blessed because of my faithfulness, God has good plans for me, etc. But it all has started to sound like "blah blah blah" because I'm tired, and my life sucks (I know not very positive, but...).

I'm glad you've posted here and I'm thankful to all the ladies helping you, as you're helping me as well.

I have these ups and downs, some days I'm ready to "win this race" and I'm feeling somewhat joyful (though bad things are still happening), but I can only keep it up for so long then I'm just "done", tired, mad at God.

But I think I know why I keep running out of steam. Because I'm striving when I shouldn't be, and believing lies.

I was angry yesterday and telling God how I'm sick of feeling like He won't help me, like I have to earn His help and I can't. Why hasn't He helped me? When it looks like He's gonna, it still doesn't work out, etc, etc. all those thoughts took over, and I started giving in to the lie that my life is cursed.

Because I feel I've been faithful in these 3 years of really walking with God, trying to "die to self", dealing with sin, waiting on God, not moving before He tells me. Which I feel has gotten me nowhere and I was mad about it.

And today I tuned n the TV and a preacher was talking about how God became a curse FOR US.

First of all my life isn't cursed.

It's blessed, I'm gonna be victorious, and I don't have to earn that. I can't earn that.

Second, Christ died already, taking up my cross does not mean I have to kill myself (by striving), it means I have to trust God. Trust Him to do His work in me (Phillipians 1:6). I'm not gonna bear fruit by trying, I'm gonna bear fruit by trusting and ABIDING in God.
Where there is light darkness can not be, so your sin nature will decrease as you ABIDE is Christ and He increases in you.
(I have to remember this).

Galatians 3:13-14
13Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: "Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree.
14 He redeemed us in order that the blessing given to Abraham might come to the Gentiles through Christ Jesus, so that by faith we might receive the promise of the Spirit.

Genesis 24:1
Abraham was now old and well advanced in years, and the LORD had blessed him in every way.

Now Galatians 3:13 says Christ died for us, became a curse for us, so that the blessing given to Abraham might come to us. The blessing given to Abraham. God wants to bless us in every way:

" Every good and perfect give comes down from the father"

"For I know the plans that I have for you, says the LORD, plans to prosper you, not to fail you, to give you a hope and a future".

Since Satan can't get real victory over us, his next best thing is to wreak havoc in our minds and with his smoke and mirrors make us believe his lies that speak defeat.

Say there are two boxers in the ring after a match, the loser after getting back up decides to prance around lying saying "I gonna win, I'm gonna beat you loser, I'm gonna knock you out hahaha". The winner would be silly to let that get him depressed. Why would he believe that? He knows he already won! The other idiot is straight up lying. The other idiot is Satan.

When I cry out to God, even if I'm just venting and what I'm saying is just negative, He doesn't let me stay down for long, He comforts me and picks me back up. So I know He is faithful and wants me to keep going.

I heard Joel Osteen say that everyone has ups and downs, but there will be day that you won't have to worry about getting back up, because God will pick you up and sustain you. I know He can do that, but if you're still kicking and striving once he has you in His arms, you're gonna get worn out,

 

[kila82]

LoveisYou that was a POWERFUL post! I'm gonna copy and paste this into my notes on my phone is u don't mind

 

[LoveisYou]

LoveisYou that was a POWERFUL post! I'm gonna copy and paste this into my notes on my phone is u don't mind

Go ahead, I didn't write it, I found it and decided to share it in here since it ministered to me

 

[LifeafterLHCF]

DaiseeDay your post was so dope.Its like so awesome to know I'm not the only one who is going through.Many just don't talk about it.Yes you hit on head about feeling good even when things aren't for a while.I felt like this week. Things aren't perfect in my life yet. And when I say perfect I mean ideal for me.And it just get so darn mad that I feel like why bother trying.But something makes me keep pushing.

I will be real for a second.A guy I was chatting with I felt like I liked him.I wasn't going to be able to have him the way I desired but there something I felt that was a bit off.I prayed that morning for him and for God to show me any thing that was wrong with the situation.It produced so quickly.For me it hurt but it also helped me to know God is listening to me. I felt God had left me and I know the word says he will never forsake you.But the aching of my heart deeply into my fiber of my soul feels alone.

I sometimes think back to my fav artist Jill Scott.She has a song called Hear my Call.It hits me so much.What I thought I knew about this walk,life,future seem to be all in the dumpster.I don't know if all this is suppose to happen in order to be what I was made to be but it doesn't feel good at all. But I feel that all of us will be great its just the waiting..

 

[LifeafterLHCF]

God I was reading my devotional and really am perplexed about trust.I know that you have aided me in the past but to really trust you I'm perplexed.You allowed me not have anyone to trust with basics while growing up it's hard to trust with harder issues.You have placed 2 beauties here that are not out of touch with growing in you God..I don't know what the future holds if I ever will be ok and able to accept love and other comforts but I want to try but I don't want to do it alone as I have in the past it doesn't work..I want to give myself and worries to you but it's abnormal to be in joy and not in saddness.Its time to grow.I wonder if I wil be the only one in the journey.

Things hurt right now I want to scream I want to kick things and I am suppose to just stand calm while I'm going through this phase.I tremble at times bc I'm trying to hold it together..Lord what are you trying to do?

 

[crlsweetie912]

...I need to get gut level for a minute....I'm really lost right now.....I have fasted, prayed, waited, hoped, cried. And every single door has been closed in my face....I have lost everything. Been lied on, stolen from stripped of everything that I believed God allowed me to accomplish......and still, when I come out of one trial, another one ten times worse comes along......I'm at my wits end......I don't know what else to do. The tears won't even come anymore.
But fear has me so wrapped up. I'm just lost.........

 

[LifeafterLHCF]

crlsweetie912 you can't allow fear to do you boo you have kings in training love..your the queen we have to sometimes be stripped in order to be added back properly..like when we clarify our hair we strip all the stuff and then go back and add nutrients back..God is doing the same with you..

 

[sidney]

@kila82 I can respect your pov.

I think my walk in Christ is very warped. I believe to a part I want to stop all together and breathe. I feels so draining to me. I can't fully function while trying to think of things bibical. I want to be happy and I may have to try other avenues in order to reach this. I'm tired of crying inside due to religious barriers. I have been at this walk since I was 9 and I thought I would always be a christian and thought as I got older it would get better. I find the older I get the more draining. So much judgement and I don't find myself adequate in comparison to other saints or just in life. I wonder if one can be grateful but still feel real about their own life. I have read,mediated and dug as much as I can in this christian thing. I feel heavy right now and will leave my cross because God why would you make me and then allow all this calamaity in the world and in my own world. I know not everyone will go to heaven I wonder if I will be one who goes to hell bc I can't get it right.

It's not wise to compare yourself to others. You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

2 Corinthians 10:

12 We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise.

Psalm 139:14
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

 

[sidney]

For the ladies who are going through, remember that the weapons of your warfare are not carnal. But mighty...for the pulling down of strongholds. It's the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God. It's your praise which confuses the enemy [2 Chronicles 20]. Don't walk away from salvation...it's the helmet of salvation that guards your mind from being reigned by the enemy. Don't go and sin...the breastplate of righteousness will keep your heart committed to God. You are armed with the belt of truth. That makes you dangerous! These are real weapons and they are mighty! Like Loveisyou said, what's in your hand?!

When I'm feeling like that I have to pull out KeKe to get me hype to defeat the enemy. Give him no place ladies(Ephesians 4:27)! No place!

Here are my Keke warfare songs...listen to the end...KeKe goes in!

War: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQayMcLofNE
Let Go: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2fr3NNPv_o

 

[sidney]

...I need to get gut level for a minute....I'm really lost right now.....I have fasted, prayed, waited, hoped, cried. And every single door has been closed in my face....I have lost everything. Been lied on, stolen from stripped of everything that I believed God allowed me to accomplish......and still, when I come out of one trial, another one ten times worse comes along......I'm at my wits end......I don't know what else to do. The tears won't even come anymore.
But fear has me so wrapped up. I'm just lost.........

God is a restorer, don't give up! Remember what happen to Job? The latter part of his life was even better than the first. Be not weary in well doing, in due season, you will reap if you faint not!

 

[loolalooh]

...I need to get gut level for a minute....I'm really lost right now.....I have fasted, prayed, waited, hoped, cried. And every single door has been closed in my face....I have lost everything. Been lied on, stolen from stripped of everything that I believed God allowed me to accomplish......and still, when I come out of one trial, another one ten times worse comes along......I'm at my wits end......I don't know what else to do. The tears won't even come anymore.
But fear has me so wrapped up. I'm just lost.........

crlsweetie912:

The closer you get to God, the harder the devil works ... but at some point the devil will flee. Just keep holding fast to God. The stripping, the worsening trials, ... it is all to see how strong your trust in God really is. Sometimes the Lord allows us to lose everything in order to see where our loyalty lies. You will certainly be rewarded, but you must endure the path. "Blessed are those who wait on the Lord."

Trust me, do not give the enemy an opening because he will wreak havoc once you do.

Just keep crying to the Lord. He will bless you in His timing. His word doesn't lie.