Iwanthealthyhair67
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If you are still in control, that means God is not...something to think about
Be careful what you pray for it may come to fruitation.I use to want to be this uber holy chick who was so faithfilled,happy and always pushed through.I now look at myself and laugh as none of it is possible.The harder I try to be better the more I mess up under the pressure.I guess it will take me leaving Christianity possible for me to be happy as the more I dig the worst it becomes.I observe a lady that I work with.She is amazing to me.She is competitive but not the in you face type,sweet but not a push over,helpful and never complains.I'm in awe with her bc that what I wanted to be.But then hearing how she was brought up its not wonder.I know God allows many things and I hope to be around to see the reason for certain things being allowed.
My father was murdered two weeks ago. He was the glue that kept this family together. He was my best friend. I'm not sure we or I can get through this. a lot of us including me have lost our faith.
My father was murdered two weeks ago. He was the glue that kept this family together. He was my best friend. I'm not sure we or I can get through this. a lot of us including me have lost our faith.
I struggle with that concept as it's usually presented for one reason - dealing with past holier than thou's. We aren't in that close relationship, being able to boldly come before Him so we can shove past others with proud shoulders to the front golden pews, asking for specialized favors. We have that privilege for....
...the benefit of others.
Lord please allow me to enter your fellowship tomorrow without the past pains of being a christian and attending a church service come over me to the point Im too overwhelmed and irritable..I pray for peace and the breakthrough financially so I can start living a bit but more importantly the mental breakthrough that I am sufficient and I am worth something more than a whore..I want to start seeing myself the way you see me God is this possible or do you over look my cry..I'm so tired of always having to petition for myself and when someone does I am caught off guard..I want these things bc I turn 26 if you allow and I don't want the same baggage for anymore of my life here.