Here is an article I found on what salvation means:
Footnotes:
http://www.gotquestions.org/Christian-doctrine-salvation.html
Question: "What is salvation? What is the Christian doctrine of salvation?"
Answer: Salvation is deliverance from danger or suffering. To save is to deliver or protect. The word carries the idea of victory, health, or preservation. Sometimes, the Bible uses the words saved or salvation to refer to temporal, physical deliverance, such as Paul’s deliverance from prison (Philippians 1:19).
More often, the word “salvation” concerns an eternal, spiritual deliverance. When Paul told the Philippian jailer what he must do to be saved, he was referring to the jailer’s eternal destiny (Acts 16:30-31). Jesus equated being saved with entering the kingdom of God (Matthew 19:24-25).
What are we saved from? In the Christian doctrine of salvation, we are saved from “wrath,” that is, from God’s judgment of sin (Romans 5:9; 1 Thessalonians 5:9). Our sin has separated us from God, and the consequence of sin is death (Romans 6:23). Biblical salvation refers to our deliverance from the consequence of sin and therefore involves the removal of sin.
Who does the saving? Only God can remove sin and deliver us from sin’s penalty (2 Timothy 1:9; Titus 3:5).
How does God save? In the Christian doctrine of salvation, God has rescued us through Christ (John 3:17). Specifically, it was Jesus’ death on the cross and subsequent resurrection that achieved our salvation (Romans 5:10; Ephesians 1:7). Scripture is clear that salvation is the gracious, undeserved gift of God (Ephesians 2:5, 8) and is only available through faith in Jesus Christ (Acts 4:12).
How do we receive salvation? We are saved by faith. First, we must hear the gospel—the good news of Jesus’ death and resurrection (Ephesians 1:13). Then, we must believe—fully trust the Lord Jesus (Romans 1:16). This involves repentance, a changing of mind about sin and Christ (Acts 3:19), and calling on the name of the Lord (Romans 10:9-10, 13).
A definition of the Christian doctrine of salvation would be “The deliverance, by the grace of God, from eternal punishment for sin which is granted to those who accept by faith God’s conditions of repentance and faith in the Lord Jesus.” Salvation is available in Jesus alone (John 14:6; Acts 4:12) and is dependent on God alone for provision, assurance, and security.
Article on salvation via faith/works:
http://www.gotquestions.org/salvation-faith-alone.html
Answer: This is perhaps the most important question in all of Christian theology. This question is the cause of the Reformation, the split between the Protestant churches and Catholic Church. This question is a key difference between biblical Christianity and most of the “Christian” cults. Is salvation by faith alone, or by faith plus works? Am I saved just by believing in Jesus, or do I have to believe in Jesus and do certain things?
The question of faith alone or faith plus works is made difficult by some hard-to-reconcile Bible passages. Compare Romans 3:28, 5:1 and Galatians 3:24 with James 2:24. Some see a difference between Paul (salvation is by faith alone) and James (salvation is by faith plus works). Paul dogmatically says that justification is by faith alone (Ephesians 2:8-9), while James appears to be saying that justification is by faith plus works. This apparent problem is answered by examining what exactly James is talking about. James is refuting the belief that a person can have faith without producing any good works (James 2:17-18). James is emphasizing the point that genuine faith in Christ will produce a changed life and good works (James 2:20-26). James is not saying that justification is by faith plus works, but rather that a person who is truly justified by faith will have good works in his/her life. If a person claims to be a believer, but has no good works in his/her life, then he/she likely does not have genuine faith in Christ (James 2:14, 17, 20, 26).
Paul says the same thing in his writings. The good fruit believers should have in their lives is listed in Galatians 5:22-23. Immediately after telling us that we are saved by faith, not works (Ephesians 2:8-9), Paul informs us that we were created to do good works (Ephesians 2:10). Paul expects just as much of a changed life as James does: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come” (2 Corinthians 5:17). James and Paul do not disagree in their teaching regarding salvation. They approach the same subject from different perspectives. Paul simply emphasized that justification is by faith alone while James put emphasis on the fact that genuine faith in Christ produces good works.
Me again:
All in all PoohBear, I don't know if I'm understanding your perspective on why salvation should be based on works only, why grace goes out the window, and forgiveness is not available according to the way *I THINK* you're seeing it. I noticed you spoke about following after God halfheartedly, you know that as a human being that even when trying full heartedly you're not perfect, even at little man-made assignments. You can't deny bring human/ having flesh as a factor, the Bible itself says that they wrestle. Even Paul said the things that he doesn't want to do, he ends up doing "Oh wretched man that I am, who will ave me from this body of death?" He asks, and responds, Jesus.
IMHO (yes I may be wrong) it seems you wants something different to what you already know, and
may be throwing the baby out with the bathwater here. I am in no way against questioning what we're about (or supposed to be about) but like Anthony Flew says in his book "There is a God" (2004) there must be a premise in any philosophical argument that you must simply take as a given, otherwise the argument never get started.( I'm paraphrasing here, but its like asking what made the universe and then arguing about what the universe really means and why that definition stands and questioning why said reasons justify the definition etc- you never get to the point of even arguing about what created the universe, know what I mean?) The same way you can't dissect every foundational argument/postulation (we can only get so far philosophically like that) there comes a point where you accept something very basic and are able to move from there. I really hope these have helped you, and please try not get overly critical, because it may cause you to look for more problems then trying to find a solution (not saying that you are). Even if we fragmented and dissected something as simple as how do you know that you exist, you would go crazy.
Really HTH in some way...