So the ex contacted me. Yes. The ex. Not an ex. But the EX....
This morning I woke up and checked my emails while I laid beside my husband. I was surprised to get an email from someone I dated for only months years ago.
He simply said "I will never forget you". I have not seen dude for a few years. But every so often he would send me an email or I would see him out and about and I would become nostalgic.
I then started to wonder what is good husband material? What kind of person makes a good mate? Though I loved this man and I knew that he loved me, I knew that he would not make a good partner and I had to let him go. I have no regrets. I still love him but I ove me more and he would not have been a good husband.
Being compatible, trust, stability, faithfulness, being committed and respected are more important than anything if one is to be my life partner. When it comes to permanent relationships I think with my head and not my vagina or my palpitating heart.
I did a blog about this some years ago, which some of you may remember.
What say you? What makes a good partner for you? Please share.
Background...
This morning I woke up and checked my emails while I laid beside my husband. I was surprised to get an email from someone I dated for only months years ago.
He simply said "I will never forget you". I have not seen dude for a few years. But every so often he would send me an email or I would see him out and about and I would become nostalgic.
I then started to wonder what is good husband material? What kind of person makes a good mate? Though I loved this man and I knew that he loved me, I knew that he would not make a good partner and I had to let him go. I have no regrets. I still love him but I ove me more and he would not have been a good husband.
Being compatible, trust, stability, faithfulness, being committed and respected are more important than anything if one is to be my life partner. When it comes to permanent relationships I think with my head and not my vagina or my palpitating heart.
I did a blog about this some years ago, which some of you may remember.
What say you? What makes a good partner for you? Please share.
Background...
I so wanted him to put a ring on it...................
Posted 05-22-2010 at 02:30 PM by Ganjababy
Updated 05-22-2010 at 02:37 PM by Ganjababy
Years ago I fell in love with this guy. Head over heels. Consumed. Never experienced anything like it. I was on fire. Lost all control.
He was hot. I usually like tall skinny pretty guys. This guy was not my usual type. He was medium height (5'11") and very muscular. He was a former athlete in college and worked out at the gym religiously. He was more handsome than pretty. He had a penchant for savile row suits and handmade shoes. An impeccable dresser.
We knew each other for a year or so and I knew he liked me but he did not ask me out. I wondered why. When we met I had just started dating someone regularly. He knew it was not serious but he still dragged his feet. That should have been a sign I guess.
I dumped the guy I was dating and kind of hinted to my crush that I was not seeing anyone. I had not dumped my guy for him, however, I knew that the relationship would not progress because the feelings just was not there though he ticked all the boxes.
So, finally we had a date. I felt as if I was going to burst. I was beyond elated, I felt I was going to explode with happiness and excitement. All these months of waiting for this guy to ask me out.
We were together for 7 months. 7 of the happiest months in my life, followed by utter devastation. I felt like it was too good to be true. I felt that any minute now my happiness would end. I felt that there was an ominous being waiting to snatch my euphoria. My instincts told me that if it felt like it was too good to be true then it probably was.
The sex was amazing. I am not a very sexual person. However, he made me feel ecstasy. That guy made me feel things I never knew were possible. I could not get enough of him. He made me feel secure. I was a thick girl when we met. He was able to lift me up effortelessly, as if I was a vase of flowers. I would wrap my arms around his muscular shoulders and he would sweep me up. Making me feel like I weighed 90 pounds. He made me feel safe and secure.
When we were not together, we would speak on the phone for 2-4 hours in one go. He would say to me that he did not know what was happening to him. That before me, he would never even speak on the phone for 15 minutes much less all the time we spent talking on the phone. I could speak to him about anything and everything. He thought that I was gorgeous. I felt like the most beautiful woman when we were together.
Sometimes he would come to my apartment and we would just sit, cuddled in happy silence. Other times we would go and have some wine in a wine bar or see a movie. Other times we would just ravage each other, and then sleep deeply to regain our strength, then go for seconds or thirds.
I loved the fact that he would never come to my home empty handed. He always brought me flowers or a drink. Valentines day he sent a dozen red roses to my workplace. It did not state who it was from. It just said that the sender loved me very much. He did not put his name on it so I did not call him to thank him because I thought it was my ex (not the guy I was previously dating, but someone who I had a serious relationship with for 3 years who was trying to get me back).
He rang me slightly annoyed in the night and asked me if I had received the roses. When I realised they were from him I was overjoyed. Suddenly the flowers symbolised to me the love I felt was reciprocated. In the back of my mind I always felt like my feelings for him went deeper than his.
One day, the ex that I used to see for 3 years, rang me and asked if he could come over for a chat and bring dinner. I said ok. By then he knew I was in love with this guy and seemed to have accepted it. I kind of felt sorry for him and we were friends before and after we dated so I honestly thought of him as a friend.
While we were having dinner, the new boyfriend knocked on my door. When I looked and realised it was him I panicked and did not open the door. I was quite annoyed that he would come to my house and not even call first- he did not have that right. Second, when I saw the look of pain on my ex's face I felt really sorry for him and decided to put his feelings first, so I did not open the door.
After he gave up knocking and left. My ex could not eat his dinner, I had also lost my appetite, so he left. Later he rang me and said that he almost crashed his car because he realised that it was really over. He was still hoping that we would eventually get back together. However, after seeing how distressed I was after my new BF knocked, he realised that there was no hope for him and that it was indeed over. I was a bit shocked because we had finished over 18 months previously so I could not understand what part of over he still could not understand.
After the ex left, I instigated damage control by ringing the new BF and casually asking what he has been up to. He told me not to pretend that I did not know that he had just been to my home because he peeked through my window and saw me sitting down and having dinner with some guy TBC................
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