InchHighPrivateEye
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AHeadOfCoils said:Good Mawnin my arse! Get back in here!! I hope this means that y'all are back together.
We didn't break up and now I feel kinda foolish
Not because I don't feel justified about not liking how he talked to me but because I was so melodramatic and convinced. LolWhen I say the feedback helped me it really did because I was away from LHCF, driving my car, and had a random epiphany: they asked if we were official because I said "we don't even have a commitment yet." I knew I offended him by saying that, which is why I included it int post, but I really was thinking it was the tone and I was ignoring what I said.
We talked about how we need to able to have serious conversations without being rude to each other (at first I was only referring to the way he talked to me, but then I realized I need to work on that too). He said he wasn't serious about the baby mama thing and that if I would have let him finish he was going to say "but I don't want to that." Which, frankly I still don't like because its still a threatening type of thing to say so I told him not to play with me like that. But at the same time, I said ugly things too so were moving on.
Um... What else? Oh! shortdub78 mentioned that I don't seem ready and I had an epiphany about that too. Lol. I do feel ready for something more serious but when we were talking he said that its frustrating talking to me because he doesn't know how I feel and because I avoid serious conversations. Guilty. I don't feel like I do this because I thought it was obvious to him that I seriously care about him and want him in my life BUT this is something people have told me many times so I can't just ignore him saying that. That was actually when I cried. I had felt that cry welling up for a while--since the night that I left--but I'm really good at suppressing that. When he told me I'm hard to read I just stopped suppressing it and he got all freaked out
I think he thought...chile I dunno what he thought but he kept saying "are you okay InchHigh? "At the end of the day (#bball wives
) we agreed that we wanna be on the same team and I need to work on being more open and he needs to work on proposing to me before we get to looking at houses on my lunch break. I'm just kidding--he needs to work on slowing down. While at the same time, continuing to move forward Oh. I also need to work on not throwing everything away whenever we argue. I just have a very "I don't love these heaux" nature in order to protect my feelings. But I do love him
Thanks again, ladies!
--sincerely,
Talkative arse inchhighprivateeye
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Yayyyyy for good gifts! They're now under my tree....I'm gonna try to wait til Christmas to play with everything lol. 
I'm just so excitable 
