The world isnt gonna end tomorrow , so stop being foolish and
get back with that funny man 
IDK how to. We offended each other. I guess we have irreconcilable differences (like the famous people
). This is one of those situations where I could see me saying "I love him and we're good friends but it didn't work out." But the thing is, I did my due diligence, I think. He was either talking out of his face or he hasn't been honest this whole time, or something.
Everything happened so fast. Yesterday I was kind of annoyed with everything. But he's off all week for Christmas so he called and asked if I could leave work to have lunch and go look at some places because his apartment lease will be up in March. Cool. I always cheer up when I see him. I said something snappy in the car, I admit--I don't really remember what but it was in regards to living together (something that he's asked me before and brought up again recently but I've said I'm not interested. So now he says it like "but you don't want to live with me....") and I said something snappy like "we don't even have a real commitment." He said "wow. You are being brutally honest today," because to him, I guess since he tells me TMI about his whereabouts and goings on and looks out for me and is open with me and stuff we're committed--which, in the dating sense, we are and I love him and I love it, but...I don't want to live together until we get married, which I've told him.
And he's talked about marriage, straightforwardly. I know it hasn't even quite been a year yet, but we've both been more open with each other than any other relationship and we've made plans. I've met his family and his mom and aunt were like "he's told us you're the one. He's never brought anybody home before!" and his mom was beaming calling me her future daughter-in-law and all that. I just say that to say, it seems soon but we mutually care about each other and are/were "all in" so his wanting to live together didn't put me off, because I understand people do that, but at the same time, I let him know that if we're that ready and "all in" then....propose to me, boo
I never minced words about that. He never seemed intimidated or put off by it. He has said "I want what you want." Strangers (to me) that he knows literally tell me that he talks about "me and InchHigh" in the future tense. I'm just saying that all of this is established information. I'm not in a hurry to get married--although I have been keeping my manicures more current
--but HE'S the one who is always saying he's ready for us to be in the same house and he wants to start a family soon and blah blah blah and I've just let him know what I need in order for that to happen. Otherwise, I'm chilling. We can date and I'm chillin.
Anyway (I'm sorry all my posts are so long
) I went to his house after work and some kind of way we started talking about it again and this negro was like.........Like I really don't even remember everything because at a certain point I said red and I just remember sauntering my a** down the stairs while I heard him saying "InchHigh, if you leave then that's it.....*slams door behind me*" But the gist of it was that he is ready for things and I'm not. I'm childish sometimes. To be honest, weddings are expensive (weddings are expensive? What -_-. See, first of all, he could afford a wedding. But secondly, we've talked about this before because he always talks about eloping and when I realized HOW expensive weddings were, I kind of expressed that eloping is cool too. So I basically feel like "weddings are expensive" at this point is a mindf**k.")
I would want to salvage it if thats not crazy but I'm so thrown off by this. 
, j/k 
