2011 - Christian Random Thoughts

Lord guide my bare feet on the path you desire.I'm tired of running.My feet are swollen and my back is hurting.I want to be around those only who are like you in my inner circle.Help me to mourn the loss of the life I wanted,should have had in the past.I'm responsible for my life right now.I'm responsible for my happiness.I view things so distortedly that I'm unable to appreciate life.I'm unable to live in the moment bc I'm drowning in yester years pain.I want to heal.I died Feb 20,2010 when I entered the ER.I'm alive now because of you God and I'm not the same even though I try to go back to the old me,but it feels oh so foreign which I believe is the reason for my compounding feelings.My death was both physical and mental.There are days where I want to resign and go to a psyc ward but I know that wasn't the life you meant for me as I saw what truly insane people look like,sound like I felt their pains and the overwhelming energy from them.

I have been scared to type what I just did because people can see my face on this site and could use it against me but you can't use anything aganist me as I know God is for me..I hope anyone who lurkers here be it paid or not can wake up in their own lives and allow the light to shine awesomely..be great ladies oh wait you already are.
 
GoddessMaker said:
There are days where I want to resign and go to a psyc ward but I know that wasn't the life you meant for me as I saw what truly insane people look like,sound like I felt their pains and the overwhelming energy from them.

I have been scared to type what I just did because people can see my face on this site and could use it against me but you can't use anything aganist me as I know God is for me..I hope anyone who lurkers here be it paid or not can wake up in their own lives and allow the light to shine awesomely..be great ladies oh wait you already are.
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Dear GoddesMaker, please know that maybe G-d is trying to get you to see to seek professional help. It's scary, I can bet but you need to walk through that fear to get to the garden of life. It might not even be a psych ward, but just a doctor and a counselor. Walk through that fear. It's not that we don't care, we do and pray for you all the time in earnest...but we aren't equipped to provide you the help you need to get through this. You already know where to go...to Him and if He is leading you to get professional help, trust that He will get you through. See, G-d creates tools of us on earth and we all have different uses. Maybe He wants you to use the tool of his md's and psychologists who can handle the job? You are valuable!!!! You are loved!!! Whatever it is you did, you can get through this but seek the right path. Do not be afraid! Seek Life, beautiful flower!!!!!


Isaiah 41:10

'Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'


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Guitarhero I don't mean to be rude but that's not where God leading me.I don't know if you have ever gone through certain things that I have but my last post wasn't suicidal or anything just transparency.Not all the walk will be the happiest post..heck the bible has some very dark verses..but I def get your sentiments..I'm really peaceful right now and plan to stay that way..
 
These last few days have been awful, it was like one thing after another and I've been crying, etc. I've been going through these same endless circles, I can almost predict when they are going to happen.

Welp! My birthday is tomorrow and I declared at 12:01am CST 11/2/11. That I won't go through some of the same stupid things I've been going through for years.

I AM DECLARING MY BREAKTHROUGH!!!

ETA: I'll be 35!!
 
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Countdown..... Happy early Birthday, MarriageMaterial ! Don't stress or fuss or worry about tomorrow..it will take care of itself. I declare you will have a blessed day!!

Today is my birthday, so you're in good company.. :lol: I don't look a day over 16... :look:



MarriageMaterial said:
These last few days have been awful, it was like one thing after another and I've been crying, etc. I've been going through these same endless circles, I can almost predict when they are going to happen.

Welp! My birthday is tomorrow and I declared at 12:01am CST 11/2/11. That I won't go through some of the same stupid things I've been going through for years.

I AM DECLARING MY BREAKTHROUGH!!!

ETA: I'll be 35!!
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Laela said:

Countdown..... Happy early Birthday, MarriageMaterial ! Don't stress or fuss or worry about tomorrow..it will take care of itself. I declare you will have a blessed day!!

Today is my birthday, so you're in good company.. :lol: I don't look a day over 16... :look:
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Happy Birthday Laela!!!
 
Laela and MarriageMaterial

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I just need to pray about this. Seeing this video about these stonings has just completely ruined my day and made me nauseous. I know it existed in biblical times, but Jesus did say that you should check yourself before casting stones. Some people need to take that literally. Lord help a society that would carry out such torture.
 
Laela said:

Countdown..... Happy early Birthday, MarriageMaterial ! Don't stress or fuss or worry about tomorrow..it will take care of itself. I declare you will have a blessed day!!

Today is my birthday, so you're in good company.. :lol:

I don't look a day over 16... :look:
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:lol::lol::lol: Amein, you're forever young. :yep:

I still have baby fat... so I know I don't look a day over 10 ... :look:
 
For the umpteenth time I've gotten myself into an uncomfortable/questionable situation by simply accepting an invitation without discerning first whether I ought to do so. Trying to be nice... :nono:
 
I was reflecting tonight and I ran across something again in my sermon notes.Right now I feel I'm going through spiritual schizophrenia..I'm in transition of changing mindsets but still dealing with two mind sets..similar to how we ladies transition from relaxed to natural..it can like we have to baby the new growth bc the old relax ends will strangle the life out of the new growth and eventually we have to go ahead and chop off the old in one big chop bc if not we will be imposing too big of a risk to keep both..its like they are warring with one another.

I feel this way in the state of my life.Part of me wants to believe and that I should continue to ask God not to take me out of my current situation-really not great job situation and poverty but to ask God to strengthen me and help me see what is needed while in this level.At times it's a compliment to be still in somethings bc we may have had our name called as have you considered my servant Goddessmaker.So while it's not fun right now and I'm going through to me a extended season of poverty and isolation this is all part of the consideration process and once I get out of it I will be truly delivered bc I will be able to praise in any situation going forth.The lessons I learn today aren't just for right now but they build upon one another for a lifetime.

The other part still allows too much external to affect the internal where it should be the internal should affect the external.My vision right now is blurred and frustration is on high demand.I enjoyed yesterday's peace that didn't happen today but I hope to have it again tomorrow.
 
I will not allow anyone even those I like bother me.I know it sounds rude but I wish people wouldn't be so uptight as black people.I mean omg things that are serious matters need to be examined vs ppl's ego's feeling touched.I love the little admin at work but today Im like dang even though I have respect for you you trip on things about that to me don't make sense..I guess I will love from a distance.
 
Has anyone ever had a situation unfold badly but you can't trace what you did wrong to bring it about? I know that it's erroneous to think that everything that goes wrong is because of something you could have prevented, but that thought can be hard to overcome.

It may be these times when you just have to trust that the Lord saw what was going to happen and had something for you to learn in the process.
 
Pope Benedict regarding the priesthood and some of those struggling with impurity etc.:


"...the church is a net, you never know what you'll catch..." That's for sure for the entire Church body, no matter the denomination nor position. G-d extends the invitation to ALL and if we can't understand that, then we are hypocrites to judge each other from church to church.
 
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Praising God for having received my father's blessing. It's such a relief. What he wanted and what I wanted were at odds and I could not have peace in that. I feel released to move forward with the vision I have.
 
The encounter was such a BLESSING! Thank God for healing, this is definitely the beginning of a new journey for me, and I am just excited to see where my Heavenly Father wants to take me.
 
Im soo blessed by my spiritual leaders that I have in my life. My church family loves n is always willing to listen n give advice. I longed for peace in my house n love. My father in heaven poured me out blessing that I cant even contain. Thank you father for being my provider n showing me unconditional love.

Right now im building a better n closer relationship with God who is prince of peace n he Reigns in victor. My sisters who are discourage....remember the storm wouldn't last forever .
 
Guitarhero said:
You all should make the prayer line a sticky so that people who wish to participate can find it easily.
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Guitarhero ...

Excellent Suggestion :yep: However the dates and times are subject to change in order to accommodate as many members as possible. There are so many different schedules among the members that to make it a 'sticky' the updates would soon get lost in the midst of numerous posts.

Do you have any other suggestions? Your help is sincerely needed and appreciated to make this work for everyone who wants to participate.

Are you able to join us tonight? Thanks Guitar. :yep:
 
Maybe just the access numbers and a running thread updating the various times of availability? I dunno about participating for myself but I wish this success. Can you update a sticky? Maybe just somewhere upfront where to find the prayer line and info?


ETA....I just saw the conference no.'s :yep: I might call in...will see.
 
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