Guitarhero
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Maybe the other person put her up to it? I have definitely encountered such people and still do. You just have to get to the point of ignoring their judgments.
I who has breathe at this moment will praise you Lord even though inside I feel a war going on.There part of me who is still so hurt and hasn't been touched and repels from any praising.I want to be optimistic and believe without a shadow of doubt that I will be healed of my physical affliction and also my internal pains.I'm tired of crying though Lord I'm tired of not being able to enjoy life bc I see so many things wrong with me.I have to stand on the rock and not believe that I'm inherently deformed and damaged as I know God doesn't create damaged people but this world has damaged me.Lord what I wouldn't do for the love of a real parent and support.But I know I'm 25 Im grown so I should just shut it up and just live alone.But I just want to feel love that is pure but I wonder if its even possible.
MrsIQ I haven't been able to get close to anyone to allow that.I tried at work with 2 ladies but I see too many things that aren't meshing well.They are awesome and I observe them but I can't allow them to mentor me as I want someone who wants to mentor me.I don't want to ask anyone.I feel its more one sided.
I hope in the new year I will be able to get into a church where I may be able to lay my guard down just a little to see if there is anyone I can allow to mentor me.I'm picky bc I don't trust most women since I grew up with such horrid women.
I just want to scream at work.I can't seem to enjoy this work.I know what the word says that we work for Jesus not for man.But I just want to work without working with people.God why didn't I have gifts that deal with computers or something.I don't hate having liberal art type talents I just wish I had the aptitude for technical.But I will say thank you Lord for getting my registration done today at the final hour.
^^ @Iwanthealthyhair67 I know I can count on you to keep me on the straight and narrow. I often feel like I'm so beanthe people at work which makes working with them inbearable.I don't know when or what it will take to not feel this way but this inferiority complex makes working with people hard.I always feel I have to work extra hard and when I push people out it just plays with my mind set that people really don't care anyway bc they have basically ignored me or will make remarks like oh you talking now..it hurts bc they can't see the things Im working on mentally or what things I have had to change to get here..but that's life.