2011 - Christian Random Thoughts

Borrowed from my daily girlfriends pray devotional

Dear Lord, help me remember that I became a new creation when I accepted You as my Savior, and that my value is in You and You alone. Thank You for Your promise of having a plan and a purpose just for me. Help me to embrace the plans You have for me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
 
We can enter in God rest and God will do the rest after we have done all we can. In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation.
 
quick question,

I have a lot of facebook pictures of my "old life", loads of party pics etc. I feel like they don't mesh with who I am currently, would you delete them?
 
I have renewed my commitment to making sure that I walk in love at all costs but with still limitations and being wise. But not for false reasons, walking in love is the way to touch as many lives. Our generation love people to be who they say they are...Lord, help me to bring out the best in others and not the worst. A loveless person is in touch with how everyone else has hurt them and not their own shortcomings. I definitely don't want to be that person. Explode the love walk in my heart at a great level. I am about pleasing you only. It is about doing the best for you.

Colossians 3:12-14 NLT
12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
 
Love, in any language, is straight from the heart. It pulls people together, never apart.
 
I often feel that I come in here and just dump all over never uplifting or encouraging.I truly believe that everyone in here is doing something that is totally awesome in this world.I desire so badly to believe that about myself.I often feel nothing in my life good period.I may have a job but its like a working war zone,Im working out but Im still fat and not attractive enough to get a nice man.I have a degree but nothing prestigous,I have friends but I really feel they are associates only bc I can't reveal my real side without scaring folks.

I wish at times I could be something other than me.I would love to be the good little christian virgin chick who men protect and love.Or the hard chick who feels no emotion.Or the pretty one or something but no I have this ever perplexing personality that can go both ways.I have a straightforward persona that isn't in accordance with a normal female persona.I truly wish I wasn't me I wish I wasn't being bc it hurts to live day by day feeling like a utter mistake and failure who is suppose to praise loudly and joyfully.I at times wish God let me go your plan I dont care about anymore.Why force something that someone else who may be so much better than I can do.I see nothing coming from this life except a sad early demise.Man I got to not feel things period.
 
Extremely happy--God wants us to live in joy. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
 
(((GM))), have you ever considered speaking with a Christian counselor just to talk things through, someone you can be open and honest with without fear of judgment etc.?
 
LoveisYou I have but I can't do it.I have done the none christian folks and they tell me I have alot of pent up frustration.I'm alot better than I have been but I still have days esp when under stress.Thank you for asking,that means alot
 
I look slightly optimistic about certain things in the future but I can't begin to feel good about everything.Baby steps I suppose.
 
I thank you Lord, that You will begin to reveal what needs to be done concerning about things You want to do concerning your plan for us on the earth and personal adjustments you want us to make. Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things which you do not know. We thank you that we will fully fill the plan you have for us.
 
As I sit here asking the Lord to help me get through this wilderness in my life, I begin reading scripture and he spoke to me immediately.

Luke 6:46-49 Parable of the Two Foundations

46 “But why do you call Me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do the things which I say? 47 Whoever comes to Me, and hears My sayings and does them, I will show you whom he is like: 48 He is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid the foundation on the rock. And when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently against that house, and could not shake it, for it was founded on the rock. 49 But he who heard and did nothing is like a man who built a house on the earth without a foundation, against which the stream beat vehemently; and immediately it fell. And the ruin of that house was great.”


He is preparing me for the future I desire. He is digging my roots deep and laying a solid foundation for me. This is just a test. This is a time for me to be strengthen and steadied. So when I begin to build my house, and the enemy comes, I will stand. But the one who did not build on a solid foundation, his house will fall the moment things get hard and the fall will be great.

This is why it's so important to be spiritually grounded before you get involved in any relationship or get married. You can not start building a house and then ask God to bless it. He will not and Im sure most of us have experienced this. The scripture is clear....you didn't build your foundation on a rock, you didn't take the time to dig deep enough, you didn't include Him in the process from the beginning.

When the trouble comes, the house will fall and its near impossible to fix a sinking house while the storm. You'll be too tired, desperate, searching for anything to help, and impatient to a fault.

So the only way to save the house is to destroy it (Often times you don't have to do anything, house is already been destroyed), dig deeper (in Him), then rebuild the house (he will supply all the materials you need when you've dug deep enough).
 
LoveisYou I have but I can't do it.I have done the none christian folks and they tell me I have alot of pent up frustration.I'm alot better than I have been but I still have days esp when under stress.Thank you for asking,that means alot

I understand, I have done non-Christian counseling and looking back not my cup of tea, some of the advice/suggestions I got did not match up with the word of God (though at that point in my life I really didn't think about that deeply). I am thinking about talking to a Christian counselor, I'm happy to hear that you are growing though, it's not where you've been, but where you are going ;)
 
I needed this. Thank you this is RIGHT ON TIME!!!

Forgive me Lord, let me refocus my attention on you. AMEN!

As I sit here asking the Lord to help me get through this wilderness in my life, I begin reading scripture and he spoke to me immediately.

Luke 6:46-49 Parable of the Two Foundations

46 “But why do you call Me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do the things which I say? 47 Whoever comes to Me, and hears My sayings and does them, I will show you whom he is like: 48 He is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid the foundation on the rock. And when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently against that house, and could not shake it, for it was founded on the rock. 49 But he who heard and did nothing is like a man who built a house on the earth without a foundation, against which the stream beat vehemently; and immediately it fell. And the ruin of that house was great.”


He is preparing me for the future I desire. He is digging my roots deep and laying a solid foundation for me. This is just a test. This is a time for me to be strengthen and steadied. So when I begin to build my house, and the enemy comes, I will stand. But the one who did not build on a solid foundation, his house will fall the moment things get hard and the fall will be great.

This is why it's so important to be spiritually grounded before you get involved in any relationship or get married. You can not start building a house and then ask God to bless it. He will not and Im sure most of us have experienced this. The scripture is clear....you didn't build your foundation on a rock, you didn't take the time to dig deep enough, you didn't include Him in the process from the beginning.

When the trouble comes, the house will fall and its near impossible to fix a sinking house while the storm. You'll be too tired, desperate, searching for anything to help, and impatient to a fault.

So the only way to save the house is to destroy it (Often times you don't have to do anything, house is already been destroyed), dig deeper (in Him), then rebuild the house (he will supply all the materials you need when you've dug deep enough).
 
God's word is true and tasty trifles. It is not some cute saying but it is true. Love the fact that His Word is fail proof. It has transforming power.
 
I have to decide where to move come January--and it is between 3 states, 2 of which have 800 miles between them.

There's my hometown, with my mother and kid brother.
There's Philly, with my friends and strong community
And then there's DC, where I always imagined I'd end up.

I think I know where I have been and would be happiest, but why do I feel guilty making that decision? Why is it so easy to think that the Lord's will must be that which is the most difficult and unpleasurable?
 
Lord forgive me for focusing my attention on a man that haven't arrived yet. Wondering, when your will be done, instead of trusting that your WILL be done ON TIME.
 
I wonder if I will ever be happy or not depressed.I believe being depressed is just part of me my makeup.I try to be upbeat and it happens for a while but I get tired of constant rejection and being ignored.Some in have it easy they could have lived a certain type of life yet they are able to become saved and get married and live a great life.I wish I had the attraction to where someone wants to help me become better.


I wonder if I'm just self-absorbed because all I can grasp is my own flaws and pain.I care about others and really try to encourage everyone else.I almost believe that even some of the worst ppl are better than I so I treat myself accordingly.

I know that as a wannabe christian we are suppose to stay in the word and lean not on our own understanding,then why is so much of the truth about myself per Gods word so unbelievable to me.I feel stuck in a mental horrid place where now its showing and I don't have the energy to fix it.I can't even fake not being depressed at work.I cried at my desk for 5 min and no one said a word.Maybe its time to do something.
Life truly is made of the haves and the have nots.I'm just a sorrowful soul waiting for my time to expire and praying that I get to have another chance.
 
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Growing up and much into adulthood, practically even now, I just assumed everyone's life was as interesting as ours and that people were naturally open and educated about the larger world. I thought of it as boring and typical. Now I realize it's quite different compared to others, with the latter not being so much the case. Well, that's quite alright. I welcome myself...it's who You gave me to be, sharp edges included. Blessed is the L-rd who makes all people. I thank You. Always love who you are, you're the only you that HE is going to give you.
 
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I'm terrified of something that is loving someone.I feel is it worth it or would be a loss.I wonder if I love her would it make her better,would she excel would she be able to feel supported.If I forgave her for the things she has done in the past being easy,allowing herself to be abused by family and friends becoming so depressed she tried to die.This woman I believe has overcome some much but I can see she is so terrified to live so instead she remains in the past.This woman I speak of is myself..I wonder if its time to face her.
 
Sometimes, I thank you that I will fulfill everything you called me to be. Help me to remember the necessary things. I feel like I will fall apart without you in my life. Let's go! So ready!
 
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My mother has finally been blessed with a new job after roughly two years. God has always taken care of us and made a way out of no way. Right when her unemployment was about to run out, bam! New job. God and His perfect timing...:)

Praise Him, indeed.
 
An expectation of good things happen for the rest of the week going into the end. I thank you that in all things we have overwhelming victory through Jesus. Thank you for another morning!
 
My mother has finally been blessed with a new job after roughly two years. God has always taken care of us and made a way out of no way. Right when her unemployment was about to run out, bam! New job. God and His perfect timing...:)

Praise Him, indeed.

That is so good. I am happy to hear that!
 
1 Corinthians 2:14
14But a (A)natural man (B)does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are (C)foolishness to him; and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually appraised.

44it is sown a (A)natural body, it is raised a (B)spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body.

1 Corinthians 15:46
46However, the spiritual is not first, but the natural; then the spiritual.

James 3:15
15This wisdom is not that which comes down (A)from above, but is (B)earthly, (C)natural, (D)demonic. (the natural man)

James 1:17
17Every good thing given and every perfect gift is (A)from above, coming down from (B)the Father of lights, (C)with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow.

Romans 8:7
7For the mind that is set on the flesh is(A) hostile to God, for it does not submit to God’s law;(B) indeed, it cannot.

James 4:4
4(A) You adulterous people![a] Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God?(B) Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.

John 15:19
19(A) If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because (B) you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.

1 John 2:15
Do Not Love the World
15(A) Do not love the world or the things in the world. (B) If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

Matthew 6:24
24(A) "No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and(B) money.[a]

1 John 4:5
5(A) They are from the world; therefore they speak from the world, and(B) the world listens to them.
 
I had a chat with my friend/co worker.He was mad that I have been so mean to him lately.I get real scared of folks who appear to really care.Its like I do things to mess it up.I guess I have been wounded so often I dont trust anymore and Im scared to death to let someone get close enough to see me without my mask.I feel now me and him will be smooth for now on since I really didnt like feeling the way I did about him.I crushed on him for a sec but mainly bc I have never been treated so nicely by a man ever.But he is my friend and to understand he doesnt view me in a judgmental manner I can be free to be me.Man this not being an island is hard.
 
Before I would never share my struggles with my mother and sister, I just never felt comfortable sharing with them, I always felt ashamed about certain things.....well that has been changing, they both have really become such a key part in encouraging me in my walk. My sister is fast becoming my accountability partner. I am experiencing a closeness with them I have now. I know they have both been praying for me for years and I am so thankful for that.
 
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