snugglez41685
Well-Known Member
I am writing this today because I have been holding this in for so long and need to vent. I am/was in an abusive relationship for the past nine months. It was verbally and physically abusive. About a week ago I decided to leave because I am currently two months pregnant. I thought if I went back home he would take some time to change and could stop being scared. I told him I needed some time. So I left MA to come back to NY and stay with my mother. Well he asked me to stay before I left and I said I couldn't. Well I made a big issue about if he loved me he would change and come and show me that. Well not long after I came to NY he was here also. He said when am I coming back. I said soon but I need some time. Well he kept asking for three days straight and each day I ended up busy with something like watching my lil sister. Well he told me to meet him at his mom's yesterday around one thirty and if I didn't he was leaving me. Well I started thinking about the past and wether or not he was reallly going to change this time. Well I got scared and didn't meet him. He became so upset and started screaming at me on the phone about how he wanted nothing to do with me and that he would give me money for an abortion. I started crying and my mom took the phone and hung it up. He started to text me telling me he was gonna start counseling in two weeks and how he paid all the bills and rent so I can live comfortably in MA. I said if I would have known about the counseling things would have been looked at a lil differently. He said that by me not showing up that meant I had no faith in him changing. Mind he has said he woulld go to counseling before and never made any attempt. I explained to him I was scared and didn't want to go through it again. Well now he wants nothing to do with me and is moving somewhere no one will know about. I love him but I kept thinking about our unborn child. I feel bad as if I should have believed in him. I know I never wanted this to happen. Sorry for the long post. Just so depressed.