I do believe that men are less likely to forgive but I am inclined to believe that it based on a case-by-case basis. Yes, there is ALWAYS a price in the end. Many people look at a marriage and think they know the details but really don't. They only know what the people in the marriage tell them and not an ounce more. Anything can be worked out if the two parties involved make a sincere attempt to work past it. In my case, I think my husband was able to see the real Lucie, even when I broke his heart and couldn't see through my own fogginess.
I was proud of my behavior in the past. Sick, I know. I thought I was a player and that I was untouchable. I had men, money, fun, who was better than me? When I crashed, I crashed and burned HARD!!! I lost lots of friends, money, my husband temporarily, and my self-respect. It got worse before it got better and the thing that helped me was just surveying the damage, forgiving myself, and fixing things one-by-one. I became really overwhelmed and started to hate myself. Very unpretty ish! But I made it. It's not something I am proud to share but perhaps someone who is currently like the old Lucie can relate and stop while she's ahead.
I have no judgment for you or other ladies. I'm glad you shared. I love that you are on a journey and you are aware of it. That's the stuff that great people are made of.
