stephluv
Well-Known Member
this is still one of my fav threads...
even tho i've decided that if its going to happen it will--- I kinda dont think the one for me will find me and I will end up settling in the future for a guy that loves me more than I love him...i'm 26yrs young and friends are dating, engaged or already having kids and i'm just meetin males that are more physically attracted to me then spiritually/mentally OR i am not mentally, spiritually or physically attracted to them..I am content being single for the most part...but i think others get me discouraged when they say i'm too pretty to be single or I could have any guy i want, when will it be my turn etc... they have yet to understand its not that simple to or for me I havent seen positive examples of marriage esp in my own household so I'd rather be by myself happy then with someone miserable just to not be alone...all I need is God and all I want is to be happy....maybe i'm just a lil angry and definitely sad because i see Christian women all the time with "bad" husbands-- maybe they prayed for their mate too so why are they now sufferring What went wrong? I am scared to be hurt cause instead of just breakin off with a bf this person will be the one I stated vows in front of God with and that saddens me and puts a shield up Bad enough i love too easily and get caught up
On another note: This thread has encouraged me to try praying about my love life again...this will be very hard for me to do Its like i'm showing weakness to love when I want to show that I can be happy by myself and not feel i need someone to be happy... in the meantime I will fantasize about what may not happen and enjoy all these testimonies
whew Sorry i just felt the need to say this on here what I wont say aloud-- that I secretly do want to be married one day but i'm scared and too stubborn to take a chance I never want to submit and have a man walk all over me and i'm scared that if I do meet the "one" i'll end up pushing him away cause i'm scared he'll be just another fronting man that wants a trophy wife or even worst he'll be like my father
even tho i've decided that if its going to happen it will--- I kinda dont think the one for me will find me and I will end up settling in the future for a guy that loves me more than I love him...i'm 26yrs young and friends are dating, engaged or already having kids and i'm just meetin males that are more physically attracted to me then spiritually/mentally OR i am not mentally, spiritually or physically attracted to them..I am content being single for the most part...but i think others get me discouraged when they say i'm too pretty to be single or I could have any guy i want, when will it be my turn etc... they have yet to understand its not that simple to or for me I havent seen positive examples of marriage esp in my own household so I'd rather be by myself happy then with someone miserable just to not be alone...all I need is God and all I want is to be happy....maybe i'm just a lil angry and definitely sad because i see Christian women all the time with "bad" husbands-- maybe they prayed for their mate too so why are they now sufferring What went wrong? I am scared to be hurt cause instead of just breakin off with a bf this person will be the one I stated vows in front of God with and that saddens me and puts a shield up Bad enough i love too easily and get caught up
On another note: This thread has encouraged me to try praying about my love life again...this will be very hard for me to do Its like i'm showing weakness to love when I want to show that I can be happy by myself and not feel i need someone to be happy... in the meantime I will fantasize about what may not happen and enjoy all these testimonies
whew Sorry i just felt the need to say this on here what I wont say aloud-- that I secretly do want to be married one day but i'm scared and too stubborn to take a chance I never want to submit and have a man walk all over me and i'm scared that if I do meet the "one" i'll end up pushing him away cause i'm scared he'll be just another fronting man that wants a trophy wife or even worst he'll be like my father