shorthairdiva09
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Lately, my pride has been shut down due to the recent break-up i experienced. This past lover was my first sexual partner and I feel I let myself down by going against myself and waiting until marriage but there was something or so I thought in his eyes that made me feel really secure but as time progressed things went downhil from there and we would rarely talk. I bought him a psp (during the first year) and a playstation 3 (for an anniversary present) just to see where i stood with him but it seems in my eyes that he used me for my money and forgot about the great helpful girlfriend i was. He moved to another town and got a 16 year old pregnant and figured things could still be the same, unfortunately she lost the baby and i feel like i should be there to help him but he seems to not even care.
I also found out he was talking to another girl while we were together and he let her borrow my ipod i let him use and he took it to her house and things just meshed together and now i am back to hating him again and i feel so dumb ... the price for being young dumb and vulnerable. This girl and i are becoming good friends but i was in tears last night when we were talking and he was doing and saying the exact things to her that he was saying to me to make me love him more.. and in return her also. I couldn't believe this could happen to me... i never did anything wrong during the relationship except spend money on him and what not.
how should i approach this? should i confront him about the recent information i found out or leave it in the past, i am hurt so much that it is causing my hair to break off alot and i sleep entirely too much to hide the pain i am going through. I hold my pain internally because i am not good with verbalizing my feelings (a trait i got from my mother).
I also found out he was talking to another girl while we were together and he let her borrow my ipod i let him use and he took it to her house and things just meshed together and now i am back to hating him again and i feel so dumb ... the price for being young dumb and vulnerable. This girl and i are becoming good friends but i was in tears last night when we were talking and he was doing and saying the exact things to her that he was saying to me to make me love him more.. and in return her also. I couldn't believe this could happen to me... i never did anything wrong during the relationship except spend money on him and what not.
how should i approach this? should i confront him about the recent information i found out or leave it in the past, i am hurt so much that it is causing my hair to break off alot and i sleep entirely too much to hide the pain i am going through. I hold my pain internally because i am not good with verbalizing my feelings (a trait i got from my mother).