Ok long story short......
We had a 13yr connection/relationship. The last 3 years I'd been trying to seperate myself from him (16yr age difference), but he always found his way back to my heart, and I as always let him back. We've had major ups and downs through out the years and I'd just come to the conclusion he was always gonna be there, deal with it.
Last Friday, I got the dreaded phone call from his friend telling me that he passed away. I was stunned, lost for words to bawling out of control.
Then a breath of fresh air came and I was somewhat happy because I didn't have to worry about him coming back into my life interferring with my current relationship. But I'm also sad/hurt that I'll never see him again. Deep in my heart I wanna believe that he's not gone, I know he is, I know I would've gotten a phone call/text from him by now if he was still alive.
I still have recent voicemails and text messages from him professing his love for me.
Is it wrong for one to be "relieved" that one has died?
We had a 13yr connection/relationship. The last 3 years I'd been trying to seperate myself from him (16yr age difference), but he always found his way back to my heart, and I as always let him back. We've had major ups and downs through out the years and I'd just come to the conclusion he was always gonna be there, deal with it.
Last Friday, I got the dreaded phone call from his friend telling me that he passed away. I was stunned, lost for words to bawling out of control.
Then a breath of fresh air came and I was somewhat happy because I didn't have to worry about him coming back into my life interferring with my current relationship. But I'm also sad/hurt that I'll never see him again. Deep in my heart I wanna believe that he's not gone, I know he is, I know I would've gotten a phone call/text from him by now if he was still alive.
I still have recent voicemails and text messages from him professing his love for me.
Is it wrong for one to be "relieved" that one has died?