I don't know if I'm just too impatient or not good enough-ie not saved enough etc, in order to know what God's will is suppose to be for my life. I don't want to do anything crazy but I am tired of my little life. It's very boring with no excitement. I like helping folks but it's very basic to me. I have plans and desires and at times wonder if I will forever be a fat hamster running in a cage. I know I have reached that point where I'm just uber happy where I am because it's not where I should be. Right now my life is very up in the air. My job is temp to end in Dec. I am doing all I can to secure more income because I don't want to be homeless. My lease ends in Nov. I wish I had a way of living with someone but that isn't in the cards. I will go and pray later but I really wish this would come to pass sooner than later. I don't want to go aimlessly in life. I wish I could be at my church and just lay on the alter. I feel cold.