Oh my.. Where do I begin.If I typed all the details of this rollercoaster on here Id not only be here for days it'll take all the space on this whole site..
1st...After seeing all the beautiful pictures of beautiful black love relationships on here.. I realize that this is what I have been missing and wanting and forcing from a man that was not about to give it to me.
I have been with my daughters father since jr year in highschool. after 'dating' for a few years we had her"well I had her'' shes now 20months old. We have been together for about 7 years and honestly these eight years have been tough!!!!.
To make a real long story short.... (background info) Im one of the quietest, shy-iest, loneliest person in these world. I have virtually no friends, my life consists on me taking care of my daughter and going to school I have no job at the moment so I stay home.
This guy for years has verbally abused me, accused me numeruos times of cheating, told me that I had relations with his father, tells me that Im always messing with many men. He'll call me and hear my mom daughter, sister in the background and will argue with me and tell me that I am cheating.. which is bogus...
All these years together he has never done anything for me or our daughter. Whats worst is that he doesnt have a job and wasnt even there to see the birth of our daughter.
we have blow outs all the time.. He lives in another state so we do not see each other often. When he came down to see us recently, he was staying at a hotel and while I was coming to the room and carrying our baby with groceries he accused me of cheating with a nonexistant man on my way there.. Im telling you he will accuse me of cheating if someoone says hi, if someone walks near me just about anything... I am so sick and tired of it..
He is one of the dumbest person in this world.. He claims that the only reason im with him to play games and that one of his friends are paying me to play him.. WTF... oh yea he accuses me of sleeping with all his friends that are approx. 2000 miles away.. Im asking him how is it that im doing this being that we are literally 15 states away... he says i pay and fly them all here.. WTF... I realze that this ***** is either crazy or never really cared for me...
On top of that he still tries to call his ex. and talks all this nonsense about me.. I also found womens stuff in his house. ...all i get is excuses that make no sense...
So finally to my point.. LOL...
I realize that I need a real man at home.. Someone that works, someone that wants to make sure everything is ok and handled. someone that will do whatever it is that he has to do to make sure his child is ok.. and seeing some of these photos on here and reading stories on here and listening and disgesting what my mother and his mother (yes his mother) has been saying,..I am just settling for less with him.
As im typing this.. he is calling me.. I answered he is telling me.. oh my surprised I dont hear the slow music in th backgroud. did u just leave the room.. He HEARS MY MOM, MY BROTHERS AND MY SISTER AND DAUGHTER IN THE BACKGROUND.. and he's calling to accuse me of cheating..
I know he is just trying to get rid of me but he keeps trying to put the blame towards... I CAN HONESTLY SAY I HATE HIM... AND YOU GUYS MAY NOT KNOW IT BUT ALL THE PICTURES AND STORIES MADE ME REALIZE THAT IF IM PATIENT LOVE WILL NOT ONLY COME MY WAY, BUT A GOOD MAN WORTHY OF ME WILL COME MY WAY...
I can honestly say I am a good woman and I need to believe that and live by that.. LOL.. sorry for the LOOOONNNNGGG vent.. but thanks..
1st...After seeing all the beautiful pictures of beautiful black love relationships on here.. I realize that this is what I have been missing and wanting and forcing from a man that was not about to give it to me.
I have been with my daughters father since jr year in highschool. after 'dating' for a few years we had her"well I had her'' shes now 20months old. We have been together for about 7 years and honestly these eight years have been tough!!!!.
To make a real long story short.... (background info) Im one of the quietest, shy-iest, loneliest person in these world. I have virtually no friends, my life consists on me taking care of my daughter and going to school I have no job at the moment so I stay home.
This guy for years has verbally abused me, accused me numeruos times of cheating, told me that I had relations with his father, tells me that Im always messing with many men. He'll call me and hear my mom daughter, sister in the background and will argue with me and tell me that I am cheating.. which is bogus...
All these years together he has never done anything for me or our daughter. Whats worst is that he doesnt have a job and wasnt even there to see the birth of our daughter.
we have blow outs all the time.. He lives in another state so we do not see each other often. When he came down to see us recently, he was staying at a hotel and while I was coming to the room and carrying our baby with groceries he accused me of cheating with a nonexistant man on my way there.. Im telling you he will accuse me of cheating if someoone says hi, if someone walks near me just about anything... I am so sick and tired of it..
He is one of the dumbest person in this world.. He claims that the only reason im with him to play games and that one of his friends are paying me to play him.. WTF... oh yea he accuses me of sleeping with all his friends that are approx. 2000 miles away.. Im asking him how is it that im doing this being that we are literally 15 states away... he says i pay and fly them all here.. WTF... I realze that this ***** is either crazy or never really cared for me...
On top of that he still tries to call his ex. and talks all this nonsense about me.. I also found womens stuff in his house. ...all i get is excuses that make no sense...
So finally to my point.. LOL...
I realize that I need a real man at home.. Someone that works, someone that wants to make sure everything is ok and handled. someone that will do whatever it is that he has to do to make sure his child is ok.. and seeing some of these photos on here and reading stories on here and listening and disgesting what my mother and his mother (yes his mother) has been saying,..I am just settling for less with him.
As im typing this.. he is calling me.. I answered he is telling me.. oh my surprised I dont hear the slow music in th backgroud. did u just leave the room.. He HEARS MY MOM, MY BROTHERS AND MY SISTER AND DAUGHTER IN THE BACKGROUND.. and he's calling to accuse me of cheating..
I know he is just trying to get rid of me but he keeps trying to put the blame towards... I CAN HONESTLY SAY I HATE HIM... AND YOU GUYS MAY NOT KNOW IT BUT ALL THE PICTURES AND STORIES MADE ME REALIZE THAT IF IM PATIENT LOVE WILL NOT ONLY COME MY WAY, BUT A GOOD MAN WORTHY OF ME WILL COME MY WAY...
I can honestly say I am a good woman and I need to believe that and live by that.. LOL.. sorry for the LOOOONNNNGGG vent.. but thanks..