Yesterday I did a homegrown steam treatment with Giovanni SAS in my hair. I chose SAS because it claims to be a deep conditioner. (The only other DCs I own are Aussie Moist and Giovanni 2Chic Conditioner) I applied my diluted Giovanni Direct Leave-in but I'm not sure why I did that. I usually use the diluted one on days I don't wash/CW and I use full-strength on wash days. I was undecided about SAS so I'm not sure if I did the steam treatment wrong or if it was the actual conditioner but my hair was so dry. It could also have been that I didn't use my leave-in full strength. Who knows?
In this "dry" state I was able to see the true state of my hair. My hair is in horrible condition (or does all hair appear damaged when dry?) If I'm right, I should BC and save my natural while I still can. But I'm so not ready. I haven't completed my mental transition and I'm just not ready.
I still haven't gotten my regimen down. Cowashing and wet bunning seemed to work well for me when I was on vacation in Florida. I had limited options and did what I could. However, once I got back home, I just felt overwhelmed.
Why overwhelmed? Too much information (LHCF, blogs, YT), too many products, too many different variations on the order that I could use said products, etcetera etcetera.
I already feel like I'm racing against time to get products down and now I feel like I'm in a race to save the length of my hair. I'm getting nervous.
Braids and weaves are not an option; wigs might be if I can get over my husband laughing at me and telling me I'm not proud to be black, blah blah blah...
Just another day on the transitioning roller coaster. I can't wait until my siggy says "x years natural".