Gosh, I never knew any of that. I think I'll convert...just kidding.
You're partly talking about self-esteem issues. I'm talking about evil speech lol and I don't confuse the two. I also comprehend refinement. The "dog" issue, yes, I have been knowing about it. There are worse words for goyim...but I won't say them here. Don't ask me how I know...let's just say it's in the family and it falls under "evil speech." I do get your point but will expand mine. We are part of a community. It's not enough to just know G-d yourself. We are all in this together, as from the beginning of time. So, to me, it's not enough to just know a truth inside of myself, I'm responsible for spreading it to my brother and this is what repairing the world is all about.
I do not esteem myself in any way, good or bad; self-esteem is a man-centered concept. My life is for His use, nothing more.
Outside of children, who does not know what racism is and how it affects people? We are to spread is the Evangel through His authority and teach (and correct) the brethren when He prompts us to. That's it.
We are not to repair the world; that is His domain. We are His tools, not by our own intentions or strength, but His. Even this ancient prayer alludes to it:
Aleinu
It is our duty to praise the Master of all,
to acclaim the greatness of the One
who forms all creation.
For God did not make us
like the nations of other lands,
and did not make us the same as other
families of the Earth.
God did not place us
in the same situations as others,
and our destiny is not the same
as anyone else's.
And we bend our knees, and bow down,
and give thanks, before the Ruler,
the Ruler of Rulers, the Holy One, Blessed is God.
The One who spread out the heavens,
and made the foundations of the Earth,
and whose precious dwelling is in the heavens above,
and whose powerful Presence is in the highest heights.
Adonai is our God.
There is none else.
Our God is truth, and nothing else compares.
As it is written in Your Torah:
"And you shall know today, and take to heart,
that Adonai is the only God,
in the heavens above and on Earth below.
There is no other."
Therefore we put our hope in You, Adonai our God,
to soon see the glory of Your strength,
to remove all idols from the Earth,
and to completely cut off all false gods;
to repair the world, Your holy empire.
And for all living flesh to call Your name,
and for all the wicked of the Earth to turn to You.
May all the world's inhabitants recognize and know that
to You every knee must bend and every tongue must swear loyalty.
Before You, Adonai, our God,
may all bow down,
and give honor to Your precious name,
and may all take upon themselves the yoke of Your rule.
And may You reign over them soon
and forever and always.
Because all rule is Yours alone,
and You will rule
in honor forever and ever.
As it is written in Your Torah:
"Adonai will reign forever and ever."
And it is said: "Adonai will be Ruler
over the whole Earth, and on that day,
God will be One,
and God's name will be One.
it me sadness me each time that these men start of preaching the unadulterated word and doing good works in His name but somewhere along the line it changes. IDK if it is a combination of the fame or the riches reaped from their ministries that makes them do unspeakable things to keep the grave train going because they have become accustomed to a certain lifestyle.
I comprehend you.
I thought you only read from it and none other. And as for the blue...do you realize that, to a Jew, Jesus is a false idol? I'm not saying that...I'm just saying. What you up to? 
