kaynewme
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So I decided to post my issues here since my few friends are so tired of listening to me. I had previously posted that my ex boyfriend had broken up with me because of his insecurities. But that was only part of the story. I met him online in October. We would text here and there. But we never went out. I finally decided to go out him in November. It was an instance attraction. I have been on blind dates before...some of them were terrible. We had many things in common. He was very handsome. We started hanging out all the time. He said he was looking for a serious relationship. Sidenote almost a year ago he broke up with his girlfriend he was living with and moved in with his aunt. Hes also an assistant manager at a fast food restaurant. Everyone has a past so I didnt think anything of these things. We decided to be in a relationship on 1/11/11. Everything was great and good until. He was suppose to get a promotion at work, which he received but it wasnt for the money he hope for. He said his life goal was to be the manager of this place. Previously we discussed him going back to Temple to finish his degree, since he has sixty something credits. He began to feel he couldnt provide me with anything or take me out as often. Another sidenote-I'm nurse and have been one for five years. His mom murder anniversary was coming up and he was feeling bum. He had misplaced his IPOD and his laptop was broken. I decided to purchase him an IPOD and I had a friend load with all his favorite music and I placed pictures of us and his mom on it. I gave it to him two days before Valentines Day. He refused to take it, he said he didnt deserve it. I was a bit shock. On Valentines Day,I had to work 7-3. We were gonna have dinner downtown. He texted around five to say he wasnt coming over. Make a long story short he confessed that he slept with his ex (the one he use to live with twice). The same day this girl had requested me on facebook. I was so shocked and devastated. But we did talk. He cried and explained all this stuff to me. Yes naive me decided to stick it out. Once again everything was great. We went away on a mini-vacay to New York. I gave him the ipod when we got back. One day I was working 3-11 and he sent me a text "I cant do this anymore, I have feelings for my ex" So three days later he came over to bring back other little things I had given him and to talk. He said he couldnt please me financially or sexually. He doesnt love himself. This ex had two abortions and he feels he owes her something. He doesnt know what he wants to do with his life and at time I was applying to schools. He said he doesnt deserve me and I was too nice. He said he doesnt know if he deserves to be happy. He said hes confused.The ex is more at his level he said. They have been on and off for two years. She has a daughter hes known since she was four months old.The ex also wrote me and said hes always like this up and down...like a rollercoaster. Previously he had mention when we first started talking that he usually dates girls with kids and ones without careers. Its been a month since all of these things occured. I still miss him like crazy. lol. I shouldn't. I still love him. We dont really talk. I text, he doesnt answer. He told he still loves me, but he isnt good enough for me. He said hes still single but is trying to make things work with her...he doesnt know if thats the right thing to do. He said hes better off being alone. SO WHY AM I NOT OVER HIM YET???!!!!! I FEEL SO BAD I INVESTED ALL THIS TIME AND ENERGY INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP. WE REALLY HAD GREAT CHEMISTRY. WE SHARED SO MANY THINGS TOGETHER. I just had to vent. I keep sulking and thinking about him. I know it isnt right
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). Bottom line is, he's not emotionally stable OR ambitious enough to come up to your level, so he stays where he is and goes with the person below his level. 
