PrissiSippi
Simply Komplex
You know the line from one of those movies (I believe BEST MAN HOLIDAY) when the guy says I feel like you dont need me. The girl turns to him and said....well... it's because I don't. I don't need you. That's my personality type. I've done a lot of soul searching and realize I have gotten this trait from my mother. The good thing is that I don't need your praise for me to do what I do. Cook, clean, iron, blah blah I'm not super woman but if I can make time...I will because I care.
On the flip side. I don't know how to be vulnerable. I'm jealous of the chicken head chicks. The time is long gone now, but when I look back every single one of my exes left me for a girl that was not smarter or prettier or could better their life more. They left for a woman that needed them. Even though their lifestyle would have never fit in with mine....I see these girls now. No job. Kids out of wedlock. But the guy still provides for them. Nails done. Hair done. Buys house. Buys car. WITH NO INPUT OR GUIDANCE OR MONEY FROM THE GIRL AT ALL. They might be a house that's in the hood or a car ten years old but still.....they guy came through. The girl NEEDED them to provide....and they did. And the men LOVE doing it!
I don't know how to let a man do things for me. If it's something that I can do, I never give a man the chance to do it for me. I go ahead and do it. Some of it is fine, but it's also one thing to be TOO independent.
And then it's really a struggle for me to say thank you for the things a man does to me. It's like pulling teeth with my soul. My mother has NEVER said thank you. Instead it was "That's what you're supposed to do. You're the man of the house". That in turn creates an environment where he doesn't feel motivated to do anything for her. She never shows appreciation and she can do it herself so...he lets her.
I do not want this type of relationship. My relationship is totally different from theirs but I realize this is something I really need to work on. So I have been reading the book "The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands" but I want to know your insight.
On the flip side. I don't know how to be vulnerable. I'm jealous of the chicken head chicks. The time is long gone now, but when I look back every single one of my exes left me for a girl that was not smarter or prettier or could better their life more. They left for a woman that needed them. Even though their lifestyle would have never fit in with mine....I see these girls now. No job. Kids out of wedlock. But the guy still provides for them. Nails done. Hair done. Buys house. Buys car. WITH NO INPUT OR GUIDANCE OR MONEY FROM THE GIRL AT ALL. They might be a house that's in the hood or a car ten years old but still.....they guy came through. The girl NEEDED them to provide....and they did. And the men LOVE doing it!
I don't know how to let a man do things for me. If it's something that I can do, I never give a man the chance to do it for me. I go ahead and do it. Some of it is fine, but it's also one thing to be TOO independent.
And then it's really a struggle for me to say thank you for the things a man does to me. It's like pulling teeth with my soul. My mother has NEVER said thank you. Instead it was "That's what you're supposed to do. You're the man of the house". That in turn creates an environment where he doesn't feel motivated to do anything for her. She never shows appreciation and she can do it herself so...he lets her.
I do not want this type of relationship. My relationship is totally different from theirs but I realize this is something I really need to work on. So I have been reading the book "The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands" but I want to know your insight.