ZLUVSNEWZEE
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This is a post directed more so at the single mom. I'm so emotionally spent and disgusted with myself and I don't know how to move past this moment.
I am having the hardest time dealing with baby daddy. He knows how to make me feel worthless but truthfully it's my own fault. He's been talking about how much he wants to get back together. How it's all that matters to him. I'm immediately against it but find myself enjoying his vulnerability at the same time. I soak up the attention and now I'm emotional because he got mad at me, hung up on me, and block my call for hours. This was what he did when we were together. He'd refuse to answer my call when we were in a bad place or he'd walk away from our entire relationship for months. I have issues with feeling abandoned and I think that's why I become so distraught at these times.
But more than that it's the fact that again he got inside my emotions and messed around and I never saw it coming. I've posted about him before and he's definitely no good for me but that fact doesn't keep him from having an affect on me and I hate that.
Im sick of being here in this space with him... does it ever end? I guess that's my question... is there Some point where this will all be unemotional and I'll be able to look at him and talk to him without feeling overwhelming hatred or other wise?
I am having the hardest time dealing with baby daddy. He knows how to make me feel worthless but truthfully it's my own fault. He's been talking about how much he wants to get back together. How it's all that matters to him. I'm immediately against it but find myself enjoying his vulnerability at the same time. I soak up the attention and now I'm emotional because he got mad at me, hung up on me, and block my call for hours. This was what he did when we were together. He'd refuse to answer my call when we were in a bad place or he'd walk away from our entire relationship for months. I have issues with feeling abandoned and I think that's why I become so distraught at these times.
But more than that it's the fact that again he got inside my emotions and messed around and I never saw it coming. I've posted about him before and he's definitely no good for me but that fact doesn't keep him from having an affect on me and I hate that.
Im sick of being here in this space with him... does it ever end? I guess that's my question... is there Some point where this will all be unemotional and I'll be able to look at him and talk to him without feeling overwhelming hatred or other wise?