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rabs77: I think every woman who is about something will eventually be in this position, if she stays single past age 20 or so.
I have been in the position to settle down with several men who were crazy about me, but who I just wasn't feeling like that. I totally understand what you mean about being resentful because in each case, seeing how these men looked at me made me very resentful that I hadn't found someone to inspire that kind of feeling in me.
I guess this thread also ties into the question of: What is the point of marriage to you? Would you be content marrying just for companionship? Would you be content marrying just for children? Would you be content marrying just to improve your standard of living? Would you be content marrying just to be able to say that you, too, have someone and to not have to face the stigma associated with being unmarried at an older age?
For me, marriage is pointless if the person I am with is not that special someone. If I am never again allowed to have sex with another person and must always consider this person in all of my decisions, then the person I am doing all of that for has to be truly special to my heart. Otherwise, I will grow resentful at making such sacrifices for someone who I don't care about more than I do my friends, for instance. Also, the secret fear is always in my heart when I am with someone I feel just ok about:
What if I meet the person with whom I do feel incredible chemistry and shared values, goals, and everything else?
I would feel honor-bound to remain in the marriage and let that person of my dreams go, but I am not sure that I could do that without being embittered in the process and extremely resentful of the person I had married. I am not sure that taking the risk that I will not find the right one is worse than setting myself up to be in the painful, terrible position of having found the love of my life who isn't my husband.